399. handphone

Joke of the day: The English teacher wish to find out how good are her students vocab standards.
Teacher : Can anyone quote me an example of "coincidence"?
John raises his hand with great excitement.
Teacher : Yes John?
John : My father and mother got married at the same day, same time and same location!

It's gonna be another long day at work. Sucks big time! I simply hate afternoon shifts. But what can I do?

Mum's new Samsung z370 came yesterday. Not bad actually. It's ultra thin with 3G capabilities and comes with a 2 megapixel camera! Guess what, it's $0 promotion! But of course, she gave it to brother to use. I got my own staff purchase with my company later.

Gonna go for work soon. Haiz...

398. new family

Joke of the day: The teacher starts the Science lesson and started asking questions to help students recall their previous chapter.
Teacher : Anyone call tell me what is the chemical formula of water? Yes, Ellen?
Ellen : HIJKLMNO
Teacher : What are you saying Ellen?
Ellen : Chemical formula of water of course! You told us yesterday that chemical formula of water is H to O.

I'm sleepy. Have to wake up early so that I can charge my mp3 player. It went flat last night after continuous playing radio for like 9hours. Haha.

Anyway, I'm beginning to like this new family at corporate department. The peps are really friendly and I mean it. They are very helpful too and much more fun then what we've always think. Gosh, I'll be so badly missing them when I leave.

Have yet to edit my resume. Still thinking of what to write for my current employment. This is gonna be tricky because I can't be writing that my job is to answer calls right? Haha. Oh yes, before I leave, need to make a new spectacles and buy new handphone. Make full use of the staff entitlement of course. Haha.

Yesterday was Athiah's engagement and too bad, we can't be present due to work but still wishing her all the best. Warmest blessings from our batch! And yes, she's so gorgeous in her engagement gown!

397. secure

Quote of the day: I'm BIG! I've measured.

Finally I have the "answer to enhanced security". Well, at least that was what printed on the package of the DBS iB Secure device. Slightly smaller then the mp3 players but I can't seem to find a place to keep it. What if I lost it?

Anyway, don't you find my "quote of the day" funny? Haha. It's actually the tagline of the upcoming movie -- The Epic. So with a lil changes here and there and viola, a quote to "boost my male ego"! Haha.

Weird to find me blogging at this hour? Morning? Don't I need to work or OT? Yes, I'm working today but I'm back to the irritating afternoon shift! Damn, I hate the sudden changes in timing. I'm on early morning shift for the almost entire week and suddenly an afternoon shift on Sunday. What crap is this?!? So, I'll be like on afternoon shift for the entire week next week also. SUCKS!

396. tendering plans

Rant of the day: 天是灰的，但心情却是晴朗的。

I'm planning when to tender my resignation. How I wish my 1 year with the company is now. Haha. I really need a change in environment. I have enough of the "you scratch my back and I scratch yours" kinda work schedules. Anyway, I didn't quote that, my supervisor did. She's like referring it to if you do more OTs for the department, they can grant more exceptions for you if you need. To me, it's like WHATEVER!

With my basic increased now, my OT pay will increase also. But because December wasn't my OT month, so this month's pay is quite affected. Low shift allowances. Little OT done. But I've really feel what's life in December itself. Chalet... Quality time with family and dear... Rest... Away from stress... I think these are way priceless as compared to monetary rewards.

So, what to plan/do before tendering?

1. Submit the letter for my 1 year graduity reward. Hope I can get $1500! *crossing fingers*
2. Make new spectacles.
3. Edit my resume. Make sure it's a good one!
4. Prepare my letter of resignation.
5. Think of a good reason for the exit interview by HR.
6. Start to flip recruitment section.
7. Prepare my farewell email to my department and my best buddies at work.
8. Apply for SIM.

I can't wait...

Anyway, dear finally found a new job but it's a temp one. Well, better then none right? At least there's some cash flow coming in to chiam see dong.

Oh yes, did I mentioned that I've got the Guess belt? I tell you, it's "oh my goodness" bargain! I've like got it for $39.95! Originally priced at $79.90 and now, 50% off! Ok, so basically I've done most of my shopping for Chinese New Year even though I'm not celebrating it this year. I still cannot resist shopping. Haha.

395. moving on

Rant of the day: Working 5 hours of off day OT in corporate department isn't as bad as my previous department. At least it wasn't so stress.

Very soon, Chinese New Year will be around the corner but my family isn't celebrating. After Grandpa's departure, everything remains very much the same, well besides the fact that Grandma's mouth is super bored as she's missing out someone to scream at everyday. Well, it's actually her daily practise of nagging and screaming at Grandpa. Her daily pastime perhaps.

I'm home after today's off day OT. It's been quite a long time since I've done a 5 hours OT. Usually I'll apply for 4 hours so that I can still reserve some strength for my own stuff but in this department, you have to do 5 hours or none. Shucks! But still quite ok actually, besides the fact that I'm really quite tired.

Guess everything is still the same am I right? Work. Shop. Eat. Sleep. Do OT. Meet dear. Only difference now is that Grandpa is no longer around. No more shouting close to his ears to say I'm here to visit him as he's actually a lil deaf. I wonder how is he doing up there?

Was doing some shopping just now and saw one of the Guess belt going for like $30++! Oh my goodness! That is freaking cheap BUT the condition is not on tip top la. But then, still acceptable for that kinda price for Guess belt! Haven't buy yet, but will get it asap. Haha.

Tomorrow's my rest day but I'm not doing OT. My application for the morning slot was rejected and they've offered me an evening slot. No way I'm taking up. I've got better things to do rather then staying in office in the evening.

Got my increment letter and from different sources, it points to me that my performance seems not bad for a newcomer. Haha. Plus, pays coming in on Friday! I can't wait!

394. 最后一面

Note: Grandpa, do rest in peace now. We will take care of ourselves.

尘归尘，土归土。外公走过了漫长的90年，终于也走到尽头了。但一切来得太过突然了。原本也以为外公的肺炎（pneumonia）会有好转，但可能因为高龄90的他承受不了煎熬而决定放弃。痛苦的是事态突然，我们并没来得及见他老人家最后一面。

15/01/07， 11.15pm 左右
和dear挂了电话，准备睡觉。因为隔天要做早班，所以提早休息。已经觉得有一点疲累了。

15/01/07， 11.22pm 左右
听到妈妈把大门上锁，准备睡觉了。

15/01/07， 11.26pm
家里电话突然响起。以往的是，如果是打错或骚扰电话，不用一下就挂电话。但这次似乎还讲了满久的。心里有一点“毛毛”的感觉但没多加理会。已经有一点昏睡的感觉了，所以也不管太多，想倒头大睡。

15/01/07， 11.27pm 左右
妈妈突然叫了起来。嘴里一直念“快起来换衣，公公不行了！”。听第一次时，还以为在做梦。但在听第二次时，似乎事态不对，赶紧跳下床看个究竟。妈妈很慌张的叫我快换衣服，必须赶去医院。听了自己也有一点慌，加快脚步，叫弟弟起床更衣。手脚算是快的了，不用一下子就准备出发。

15/01/07，11.48pm 左右
得士开得很快，不用一会儿就抵达Changi General Hospital。花了好一段功夫才抵达外公的病房但发现外公并不在病床上。心理第一刻想到的事，可能外公病情恶化而又被转移到加护病房（ICU）。刚好阿姨也到病房，面色慌张。护士便打个手势，叫我们跟她走。

15/01/07， 11.49pm
我们四人就被护士带去一个我们没去过的病房。看来很隐秘。门一开就看见外公面无血色，安静的躺在床上，一动也不动了。全部的医疗仪器都不在。妈妈和阿姨就在这瞬间痛哭起来。能到的，都到了。我们四人是最后抵达的。大家都哭成一片。一切都来得太突然了。一时之间都不知该做什么好……

外公在15/01/07，11.37pm宣告死亡。气愤的是为什么医院并没有提早通知呢？害得外公令走前见不到人和子孙最后一面！

大家其实心里都有数，外公已高龄90了。就入医生所说的，外公的病情没有恶化但也没好转。这并不是个好消息。但事情也发生的太快、太突然了。在来不及呼吸的时候、在来不及胡思乱想的时候、在来不及讨论的时候，一切就在此时发生了。真得很伤心，很难过。伤心的是我们连外公的最后一面都没看见。难过的是外公撑不到过年。唯一能欣慰的是全部的内孙外孙都长大了，也大概没什么放不下的了。

也因为家中办白事，不但没时间、没心情，也没体力。当中也因为种种事端和dear有了口角。很对不起但也希望dear能体谅和原谅。这整个礼拜并没有好好休息，现在是该养神了。

393. compassionate leave

Annoucement: I'm on compassionate leave.

I wouldn't be frequently updating my blog for this week. I'm staying over at my aunt's place. My grandpa had just passed away. Time is up and it's time to move on.

So if you are keen to drop by at the wake, sms me for the address. Wake goes on till this Friday and funeral on Saturday.

Ciaoz for now. Will be back for updates...

392. umbrella

Quote of the day: 要你给人家幸福，你却给人家舒服！

Ok, ignore that quote up there. Just heard it from Jacky Wu's variety show just now and find it super funny. Haha.

So how have you peps been recently? I've been really busy this few days. Weather went bonkers again. Suddenly heavy downpour like crazy for the past 2 days, causing my shoes to be totally drenched! It's so irritating and you know la, I'm not an "umbrella" person. I just simply don't like to bring umbrella everywhere I go. Yes, even foldable ones too. Just blame it on my laziness la. Because I find bringing umbrella everywhere I go a hindrance. As for those foldable ones, simply it makes my bag heavier and same, lazy to fold. Haha.

I've been trying very hard to adapt to the new environment in corporate department. I wouldn't say I've been doing very well but not too bad I'll say. Still, the urge of leaving is there. Benz told me she's tendering next week. I might be tendering in March as need to confirm my seating in SIM first. Just wish to get out of there as soon as possible but we all know we will miss our friends there...

Dear had fallen sick. Think I've spread the bacteria to her. See la, it all started from "muack muack". Haha... Anyway dear, please drink more water and rest more ok? See doctor if really needed. You shall now take vitamin c from my place and I INSIST ok.

That's all for now. Need to keep my PC on to charge my mp3 player. Nitez peps...

391. 不同消息

Annoucement: I'm not working on the first day of Chinese New Year but there's nothing to be happy about because for the next 3 days, I'll be working afternoon shift!

昨天，dear的突然出现让我喜出望外。天下着雨，而dear的手上还带了一包鱼粥。我真得很感动，眼泪都快夺眶而出了！

好消息是，全部的问题与误会都一一化解。双方都有责任，但都从我自己的不安开始。可能真的是自己为了保护爱人的心切而弄巧反拙，但是出自与“爱”。因为怕失去而感到不安，是正常反应。所以还好我还正常……也许是因为从小到大所经历的太多问题，而让自己容易失去安全感吧。希望dear会了解。

坏消息是，外公进医院了。开来要有心理准备了。昨晚被送入章宜亿元，然后被转入加护病房（ICU）留医观察。今天以断定了，又是肺炎。上一次是其中之一的肺，但这次很严重，因为两个肺都发炎了！这导致外公无法正常呼吸，必须靠氧气桶来维持呼吸。希望一切安好。明天我照完X光后，会花一点时间探望外公。

大家跟我一起祈祷好不好？

390. 又生病了

Rant of the day: I'm on MC again. Down with fever but no one seems to care...

又生病了。这次是发烧了。可能是不够睡的关系，也可能捉摸不定的天气。身体一直没有好好的照顾好吧。

昨晚一整夜都没睡好。虽然昨晚就已经不舒服了，但还是没法好好的入睡。

是因为我太古板了吗？

是因为我太敏感了吗？

是因为我爱得太深而太紧张了吗？

难道关心爱人安危也错了吗？

你们会在一有了另一半后，还随便把手机号码给不认识的人吗？

我到底在她心中占据了什么位子？

我觉得好没有安全感。我觉得很失望。我觉得很受伤。整个晚上思绪很乱……很烦……再加上身体忽冷忽热，简直是分秒难熬。到底谁会了解？连一则关心的简讯也不留。通话也冷言冷语的。早上只有Winnie发了一则简讯问候一下，反而是同事朋友关心我多一点。

我的心好痛、好想哭……我突然觉得好寂寞、好孤单、好孤独……

身体好弱。鼻子很不舒服。喉咙很干。还是尽量别想太多了吧……

389. transfer

Annoucement: I might bring forward my tendering date. But of course, I'll not give up without a "fight". Will still try my best at corporate department.

Last day of training and I still don't think I'm really ready to do corporate. Whatever nice words they had said does not really makes me feel happy. I've been moody ever since it was annouced to me that I'll be volunteered to transfer. I'm seriously NOT happy about it because the option to say "no" was NEVER made available.

Nevertheless, I'll still do my best here since it's already a fact now and also my new boss promised to do some arrangement for the first day of Chinese New Year. Will give myself some time to adapt but if by end of Febuary and I still can't get myself into the job, I'll tender once I get my graduitity reward. So by then, I'll need to start looking for another job and must go for office hour so as to make part time studying possible.

I'm not working tomorrow but once Monday comes, hell comes too... Wish me luck!

388. 名牌香水

Rant of the day: Gosh. Corporate training is tough. I'm very worried now but who will understand?

听dear说她的邻居丢了很多名牌香水，而且这些名牌香水都用不到90%！好浪费哦！更气人的是，既然不要用了还不让女佣拿。莫名其妙……

试想想，在地球的另一端，有多少人饭没的吃、连干净的食水都喝不到，而这里却有人把一瓶瓶的名牌香水往垃圾桶丢！钱多也不是这样花的嘛……突然有一点瞧不起这儿种人。钱赚的再多可是连基本的道德观都没有，到底真正拥有的是什么？

如果不要用了，或者是发现这些香水部适合自己，不如捐给救世军（Salvation Army），不但能以廉价卖出、筹一些钱来做慈善，还能让有需要的人受惠。能帮别人、还能帮自己积一点德。是不是两全其美的还是呢？

希望这能大家一起来反省反省吧！

387. new year resolution

Rant of the day: As the day to transfer to the other department draws nearer, I'm getting more and more insecure...

More shopping to be done today. Bought a new pair of leather shoes for work. Cheap lor! Plus the brand isn't too bad, from Americaya. Ok la, at only $59. If it can last me like my present pair for 5 years, it's way value for money. Haha. I don't expect much, as long as it can last me a 3 good years will be nice.

I'm starting to use Vitamin E eye cream now too. Just bought a tube from Body Shop. Usual price at $24.90 but after dear's discount, I get it at $14.90! So cheap right? Jealous? Just simply hope this cream can bring me some miracles. Need to solve my serious eye bags and dark rings problem. It's been troubling me since young. If I want to go for lasik operation, the first thing to settle is my dark rings. It's SOOOOOOOOOO ugly!

Have you got your resolution done? After thinking for quite a while, these are what I wish...

1. Save up more for studies. I seriously need to save even more then what I have now even though my current savings is pretty comfortable. When I'm accepted to SIM, I'm sure I'll need alot of money to keep my daily expenses and study installments going. Most probably need a laptop and you know when I buy gadgets, they don't come cheap as I don't want to get a "half fuck" laptop. No need to best in everything but at least good enough. Therefore, at least around $2500.

2. Study hard (if ever I'm accepted of course). Well, this goes without saying. I mean when I'm studying, I've always tried studying hard but results always shoes otherwise. So if I'm ever accepted, I just hope I can do well. It's my own money and I definitely don't want to waste it.

3. Treat dear better. I've been trying very hard to treat her well last year but I hope I can out-do it this year. From my resources and references, both dear's zodiac and horoscope signs does not shows well for 2007 so I hope I can help her pull it through. Even though we shouldn't believe and depend too much for such books or references but somehow it does serve as a guide. At least we can be prepared. So I'll be prepared...

4. Look for a better job. Well, not that my current job is not good but when I ever embark on studying, I will need a more office hour job so that I can still keep my earnings coming in and yet studying at the same time after work and on weekends.

5. More time with mum. I know I haven't spend alot of time with her. I'll try my best. Really... But when I'm home, she's not. When she's home, I'm not. We are either working or I have my stuff to do.

6. Try to keep my cool. Well, this is more for work. I'm in service line and no matter what circumstances, we should try to maintain our temper. This is going to be TOUGH! I'm not someone who have nice temper. I blow up very easily, which makes me not very suitable in such service lines but no choice la, I need the money. But somehow, this point also serve as a wake up resolution for all. Please treat all peps you meet nice. Well, at least not to abuse us whose providing you a service.

Lemme just keep to 6 points for now. I hope I can do it... It's pretty late now and I'm working tomorrow morning till late. Need to catch some rest. Nights peps!

386. look back on 2006

Annoucement: Welcome 2007. Hopes everything goes well...

Finally, 2006 comes to an end. Had your new year resolutions drafted? I haven't. Just hoping everything will turn out fine. So what did you do to welcome 2007? I did it with a MC. I mean after my countdown and KTV session, by the time I'd reached home, it's like already 7am! Imagine me sleep for like 1 hour and need to get ready for today's work? No way...

So looking back at 2006, lemme do a quick summary of what are the events that is worth keeping in my memory...

1. I've found my first permanent job on Valentine's Day (yikes!).
2. I've found my love. Still blooming since 050306! Will keep the fire burning.
3. Failed to enter local university AGAIN! Don't think I'll try again next year. Waste of my time.
4. Failed my Class 2B test for the 2nd time and decided to give up due to work.
5. Celebrated dear's 21st birthday and get to be "introduced" to her almost entire family.
6. Lil brother's enlistment to Tekong. Re-visited the memory lanes.
7. Stayed for my most memorable chalet with mum and dear.
8. Got my 1st bonus. Wah... cha-ching...
9. Got "volunteered" to transfer out to another department. What kinda shit is this?
10. Counted 1 year of knowing dear since 311205!

Well, here you go. Top 10 news from me. So what's up for 2007?