784. on 31 december 2008...

Love of the day: I love working half day! Yippeee...

Ok, I'm gonna use mum's mobile line to upgrade to a better phone. Omnia, here I come!!! With trade in here and there, the 8GB version shouldn't cost more than $190. Not bad eh... Goodbye Sony Ericsson! Hello Samsung!

Anyway, prolly my last post for 2008. Just some reflection on myself for 2008. Not exactly the best year to talk about...

2008 is the year where I no longer felt "attached" to my job. It is now only a job to sustain my school fees. When you pull a rubberband too much, it snaps. Same applies for human. Either the person snaps mentally or the interest on the job snaps. Either case, it's a lose-lose situation for the office. Because, productivity level drops. This results in lower quality. So, don't complain why your staff "sucks" in their job.

2008 is the year when I finally got the chance to know how the radio broadcasting works. Yeah, it came with a price. But now, I have a better picture of what to expect if I'm ever going to be a radio DJ. Nah... that's not gonna come true lar. Just a dream.

2008 is the year when I first stepped into a real recording studio. Not exactly just to record my own songs but rather, a collaborated DnD album though. But it's damn exciting! Unfortunately, no solo parts. So sad... But still, it's an experience.

2008 is the year when I conclude the results for my first year with RMIT. Not bad though. Straight distinction. Hopes of flying to Australia to graduate grew stronger. Now it's a chance to prove that Eric can indeed achieve something academically. He is not a stupid boy! Booooo to those who use to think Eric is a totally dumb ass during primary, secondary and poly years. you see, Eric can do it!

2008 is the year when I got my first credit for the final year RMIT studies. So demoralised. Contradicts the above para. Now, hopes about flying to Australia diminished. So sad... This means I have to work double or even triple harder then now! Looks like more sleeping time have to be sacrifice.

2008 is the year when I got my first credit card. Yeah! So exciting! But watch the spending ya. Must always echo this in my head "Don't over spend... Don't over spend..."

2008 is the year when there is a new family member at home -- Deric, my Japanese Spitz. He is totally adorable. Seldom barks and always do the cute grunts. Always waiting for us to feed him snacks. And yes, always poo poo around his "toilet" tray but rarely on the tray accurately! Maybe he is also short-sighted.

2008 is the year when I'm really pissed off with people in office... yes, that twinkle twinkle starfish! And today, she also have to ask me something that my jaws almost dropped. Didn't she passed her income tax course? Why still ask me those DUMB tax questions which can be self answered if she look at the damn form properly?

2008 is the year when I make new friends in work and school! New faces. New people. You peeps had been great company. Tianyu... Jocelyn... Sarah... Joanne... Ching Ping... Stanley... Huey Weng... Fang Ying... all the temp staff... Siew Hoon... You peeps rocks!

2008 is the year when I got really upset with people in class. No names mentioned but it hurts and saddens me. All the trust are lost. What I used to believe, now, I no longer believe.

2008 is the year when I no longer trust Sony Ericsson's product. Think their mobile phone sucks to the core. Their older model were so good but why they cannot continue the legacy? The mobiles are getting from bad to worse!

And how can I forget about dear?

Today, is officially the 3rd year I known dear. We first met each other at MoS on 31 December 2005 for that year's countdown. The accidental hooking of arms together hooked us together till now. I love you baby! Muacks! Shall we hook on for many many more years to come?

Anyway, some stuff that I really wanna do in 2009. Not really a resolution but a hope that I have the time or money or courage to do it...
1) Record my radio DJ demo and send it to Mediacorp
2) Start a Mandrin online novel
3) Exercise more often
4) Take up long term hip hop class
5) Learn singing
6) Complete a marathon
7) Go for a long holiday

That's about all I guess...

Ok, time to start preparing for countdown tonight. Zirca or Rebel or Zouk?

783. i'm demanding

Rant of the day: 2009 is coming... But how come I no mood to celebrate?

I think I might be a really demanding customer. No... I AM A DEMANDING CUSTOMER! But I'm not afraid to declare that. I will stand for what is right for myself since I am a paying customer and should be given the appropriate services.

Whatever the case is, the modem is a goner. Need to buy a new one. And Singtel is offering the "brand new" Mio modem at a hefty $140 if I subscribe the Mio TV for 6 months. As if anyone will watch it at home. And there is a minimum spending per month required. At least chargeable for $16 per month. But I managed to squeeze it off the helpline staff to provide a full waiver for the requirements on minimum charges if I take it up.

Need to discuss this further with lil brother 'cause it ain't cheap. Plus, the old modem is working perfectly now and the speed don't affect me much... yet...

Next stop, Sony Ericsson... Prolly goiong down on Friday. The idiotic phone restarting problem came back again! Even changing the motherboard doesn't help! Fuck it man! Again I repeat, I AM A DEMANDING CUSTOMER! Beware!

Anyway, just fnd this song really catchy. New JJ song, 不潮不用花錢. My body moves with the beat everytime I listen to it.

Don't you think it resembles one of the PCD song and one of the Neyo song? I'm not too sure though.

782. fucking pissed

Quote of the day: You 很“油”and 很 eewwww……

I am FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING pissed off with Singtel.

My Internet connection has a problem and it disconnected suddenly on Sunday night. Knowing the bills are on GIRO and therefore shouldn't be an embarrasing case of line cut. So, I suspect that it might be due to an outage in the service.

But how to check? Call helpline. Best... 1610 operates in office hour. Guess what the IVRS telephone annoucement says?

"You may wish to refer to our website for more assistance."

Eh, the person who set this message obviously didn't use brain lar. My Internet down, check what from your website? I can't even connect for goodness sake! What an ass!

Then, I dialled their Singtel mobile helpline and asked if there was any news on Internet service outage. No news. So, I requested for their staff to call me the very next morning. And yes, this helpline staff TOTALLY pissed me off!

"Sir, we are different department. Could you call them tomorrow?"

Oei, common lar, I don't fucking care which department I'm calling. All I know is I'm calling Singtel for help and you better convey my message and get someone from the correct department to call me back lar. To me, you are one legal entity and as long as I don't call M1 to ask for help on my Singnet broadband, I am correct ok...

So, finally received a call from their broadband sale staff this afternoon during lunch. But unfortunately, she cannot do much since she is not the subject expert. Nevermind. I am an understanding person. So, I requested their correct person to call me back after 8pm today when I am home. Their technical support staff worked till 12 midnight ok.

And I waited... and waited... and waited... Sent my girl home and back at home at 12 midnight. Nope, no call at all. Thought my mobile might be cranky so I done some test calls and it is perfectly fine.

Great...

Now, I am really going to explode. Hey common, I wasted my whole evening, sit around and wait for assistance but none called. Tried to use the reset function on the modem but it didn't work. And guess what, I connect to the Internet now using my old modem... Right...

FINALLY~~~ Think the speed is compromised but definitely fast enough to send a decent complain email. So, will be waiting for their call tomorrow and I bet the things that is going to come out from my mouth ain't gonna be nice.

I'm Yes No Man when I'm pissed...

781. nice body

Rant of the day: Mentally abused...

Saw this on Joey's blog. Damn funny! Totally NOT sexy at all! Haha... Enjoy.

The bad thing about blog is that I cannot write anything I feel now. 'Cause I know whatever I wrote here, things happen. People react to my emotions. And I thought I finally found a place to express my feelings freely and people can understand me better... but I thought wrongly...

So, I'm almost back to an emotional fridge again. Hans gave me this nickname -- emotional fridge. And I kinda felt it indeed an apt description. Storing emotions within. I can't say what I feel and what I'm thinking and now I can't blog it too.

*sigh*

Anyway, mum will be home tomorrow! Yeah! Wondering what fantastic photos she took at Yun Nan. I haven't been to China and I felt that I should go once to appreciate the beauty of nature. And yes, I wanna climb the Great Wall of China! I wanna see Tiananmen and also, Shanghai!

And I still think that I should find a chance to go Macau. I don't gamble lar. But heard that they have very interesting nightlife! But I wanna go Spain too! Wait, still got Japan... Korea... Australia... New Zealand... Hong Kong... Taiwan... London...

Reality check -- no money... So sad...

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Everytime dear and I pass by the lingerie shop, she never fails to exclaim how she wish to have a body like those almost naked models. It never fails to amuse me with such remarks -- "If only I have that kind of body..."! Seriously, do all girls think the same way?

Lemme tell you what most guys think, or at least what I think. To me, it is merely nice to have a girlfriend with such yummilicious contours. But, it is not necessary. I can live with someone who does not have a nice body too. Anyway, I don't have it either.

Having such body line, only makes a guy feel totally insecure, unless he also have a fantastic lean and mean body. Because, every other men on the street will be ogling at the girl's ass and hoping that he can lay his hands on them! No way that I wanna let my girl to be the sex fantasies for other men. Also, you will never know if a pumped up body, cute looks and loaded with cash guy will appear and hook your own girl away!

Isn't this the same for the girls? You will feel insecure if you man is way too good looking than the normal men on the street right?

All I want in my girlfriend is to love me. Don't need to be exceptionally curvaceous or alluring but don't look too "sorry" or too "erm... ya..." lar. Just someone to love me, take care of me, support me and respect me. Not too sure for other guys though...

PS: My wife MUST know who to cook a proper meal for the family. Hahaha...

780. working hard

Rant of the day: I need a new haircut!

I just can't stop playing The Phantom of the Opera the moment my laptop is on... I love Sarah Brightman's vocals!!!

Love me -
that's all I ask
of you...

The romance of Raoul and Christine is so sweet. The love... The passion... The protection... The love so deep that I cannot resist to read the lines again and again.

The Phantom's love for Christine is totally madness... So mad... So pain... So bad that I can literally feel the ache in my heart.

Will dear and I bloom and be as sweet as Raoul and Christine? Or as pain as Phantom and Christine? I work really hard and hope the latter never comes. But I believe it is not a one man's job to keep the relationship going and both dear and I are working hard on it.

Anyway, am so broke today. Paid my school fees and... ouch... I can feel a hole in my wallet. But still, I have to grab the shirt from Zara!

So nice! Love the contrast of the black, grey and white checkers. The cut is so nice that it fits perfectly into the curves. And the quality ain't bad. So comfortable and relax. But not exactly cheap lar and it's dull in colour. Cannot wear for CNY. Still have to get some other top.

More excuses for shopping?

779. christmas

Annoucement: Zara sale now on! Chiong ah...

To all my friends who had sent me SMS greetings, thank you and I wish you a Merry Christmas too. Hope you enjoyed today.

Morning on the eve was horrendous. First, it was raining so heavily that it soaked my jeans ends wet. Then, perhaps due to the rain, the train was moving really slowly. So, the usual crowded Ang Mo Kio station was doubly crowded! Was so bad that I had to miss 1 train and even when I finally boarded, I was so badly squeezed. To end it, when we reached Toa Payoh station, a fat man was pushing everyone backwards so that he can squeeze his fat tummy in. Eh hello, no space means no space lar. If you are too fat to come in, try again the next train can?

But it was a sweet surprise in office.

The moment I stepped into my cubicle, my desk was filled with goodies! Thank you peeps for all those pressies. The present I got from the gift exchange was not in the photo as was rushing home. The bread stress ball from Joanne damn cute lar. Also, Fang Ying's gift exchange present is definitely useful -- a 2009 planner! Wah, how she knows that I uses planner every year ah?

But the best present is from dear. I had always wanted to own the original CD to The Phantom of the Opera! And dear got it from me just now. I love it love it love it so much!!! The moment switched on my PC, I had to slot in the CD and play it. The vocals are damn power lar! Love you so much dear. Muacks!

No party for this year's Christmas... Working on Friday and can't effort to go office restless with all the hangover.

778. crappy invoice

Rant of the day: No mood for Christmas...

I can't imagine why my institution is so "funny". The school fees invoice states deadline for payment is end of the month and I only received the invoice LAST NIGHT! And the best thing is, from today till the stipulated deadline, they are closed for a few days in view of the festive season.

What the fuck?

So minus off the Sundays and the half days on the Saturdays, I'm not left with much choice and to rush to school for payment after work either on this Friday or Saturday or next Monday or next Tuesday (which is the deadline). Crap...

777. worst christmas gift

Rant of the day: I'm so sad...

I just received the worst Christmas gift this year -- a credit for the kam lan module. It's my first credit lor! Fuck lar! Worse part is, I missed distinction by 2 marks! Damn dui lor!

All my hopes and dreams to fly to Australia to graduate is almost a goner, unless i get the remaining 7 modules all at least a distinction. How can it be possible? Even if I work my brain juice dried, it will still not gonna happen.

So sad... So disappointed...

And guess what, to add on to the excruciating pain, I received the invoice to pay school fees. Right... Perfect timing lar.

No mood for Christmas le.

*sigh*

776. twilight

Rant of the day: I hate Mondays...

For those who has not catch this movie, please do watch it before it's over. It's damn nice. Even the books are sold out.

And Robert Pattinson (Edward Cullen) is not exactly handsome lar. That bushy eyebrows is so comical. But he is indeed charming. The role suits him really well. So cold yet so cool. But I like Ashley Greene (Alice Cullen) better, playing the role of Edward's short hair sister. She's damn chio lor!!!

Anyway, mum is in China now. So good... Go holiday... Haha. When will I have time and money for holiday?

775. 辛酸世界

Rant of the day: 终于可以好好的睡觉了！

Project终于告一段落了。牺牲了一个礼拜的睡眠赶出来的货色，似乎有一点逊。但是为了长假，大家都一起努力。大家的辛苦会是值得的。

回家的路上就和Sharon聊了聊。话题一直离不开project。越谈就觉得越辛酸。老实说，跟我一起做project，压力会很大。因为，我对成品的素质要求蛮高的。也就是这样，环绕着我的闲言闲语相当多。可能大家都以为在背后说我我都不知道。其实，我都知道。不用等人“通风报信”，因为这种东西是能察觉的。对我来说，我会装作不知道。这样避免尴尬也万一未来发生事端，让彼此好下台。

奇怪的是，如果知道跟我做project会这么辛苦，当初又为什么一直要跟我一起做project？要跟我一起做project却又在我背后说我的闲话。我觉得这种人是十全的jerk！要选我做leader却一次又一次的中伤我。是因为project成品的素质高，才一次又一次的“忍辱负重”跟我一起做吗？

这样讲起来，似乎觉得我很被局势占了便宜。很有被利用的感觉。I'm taken advantaged by situations。几可怜……

我为什么对成品要求这么高？不是因为我吃饱没事做，想怎天到处去boss别人。而是为了整组的分数。为了能向妈妈交待。为了朋友能考取优异的成绩。为了大家拿到成绩后，脸上是微笑的。为了大局。不单单只是为了自己，也是为了大家。可是换来的却是大家的不满。

想了想，做了这么多，我到底是想prove些什么？证明我自己的能了？证明我是能考好成绩？还是证明我是有领导能力带领大家过关斩将？我自己也不是很清楚。可能以上皆是吧。

对这一切都感到很累……很累……也很无奈……

跟Sharon聊着聊着，眼泪也按耐不住的滑落。心中的委屈也就只有自己知道。

现在真的很希望接下来的project都是个人的。个人的project就不会发生这样的事。因为，一切就只靠自己。一切只为自己交待。成绩不理想也怨不了别人。只能怪自己当初为何不用功。

下一个group project，我不想做leader了。很累了……

774. no time

Rant of the day: Pre-Monday blues... So sad...

Gosh... Haven't got the time to sit down and do a proper post. Been so busy with work and study. Barely got the time to sleep actually. Office... Work... Home... Project... Read... Where's my life man? I'm so stressed that pimples are popping out everywhere on my face!!! Fark!!!

Seriously, this is not the kinda life that I wanna have but for my future, I have to do it no matter what. Things will get better... I hope...

Christmas is just around the corner but I don't feel the holiday mood. All I need for this holiday is some quality time to rest and enjoy! And I'm also looking forward to the Christmas dinner this Friday before mum flies off to China for a holiday. Turkey... Ribs... Ham... Mmmmmmmm... =P

But still, I prefer having a LONG break from work... Can't wait for next year so that I can clear my annual leave at year end! Woohoo!

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I've been having crabs for 2 days in a row! What's even better is having it with people who are important in my life. Plus, having it by the sea while breezes kisses my face. How nice... I know about the calories and cholestrol but just lemme enjoy life for a while. Food helps in destressing. Really...

Not exactly as expensive as I thought but definitely not something I can have it everyday. Just that it's bonus month, so more cash to splurge on food that I seldom eat.

Ok... Ate enough and yes, I feel fat enough too. So, back to work tomorrow but I'm seriously NOT looking forward to it.

All I want for this Christmas is less workload... I'm overloaded with work... *sigh*

773. changes

Question of the day: Is it me who always make discussion heated? *sigh*

Time is such a scary thing. People changes as time passes. From lazy to hardworking. From hardworking to lazy. From nice to mean. From someone whom you known quite well to someone you barely understand.

I usually take it as a learning experience. Observe how people changes from time to time. Their attitude. Their thinking. Their enthusiasm. I still think I had studied the wrong degree lar. I should take up sociology or psychology instead lar.

But I do enjoy very much on what I'm studying though. At least it's sort of fulfilling my original dream -- studying mass communication. It's easy to dream every night but it's difficult to fight for your dream. "Fight" as in not literally throwing punches but fighting to achieve your dreams. I'm sure my dear friend Hans will feel what I'm saying here but he's not reading lar.

I'm thinking if I should also pursue another psychology degree if money and time permits... Maybe not. Need to save up for future. My future don't end after getting this degree ya.

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Christmas is coming soon. Got your presents ready?

Was talking to Sharon and Ben on the bus ride home just now. Please don't buy me Christmas present unless you had pre-informed me that you wanna gift exchange. Else, I will scurry frantically to look for presents to give back. Please ah, save me the embarrassment and hassle. At least inform me early so that I can get you a present in exchange ok. Thanks hor!

772. today

Rant of the day: Sian... Tuesday blues...

I've recently re-installed Audition SEA and Maple SEA back into my laptop. Yes, Maple SEA do runs on Vista now but the installation is damn tedious.

The power of alter ego is huge. We all can't control ourselves to create a "new" self in the virtual world. A place where you can't see me and I can't touch you. You have powers which is not gonna happen in reality. You can dance so well but in reality, you are so clumsy until you can barely coordinate your hands and legs.

Powers of imagination runs wild. Which is why online gaming thrives even though the economy is disastrous.

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It's been raining for almost the whole day and for once, I finally felt it's DECEMBER! So cold... Brrrrrrrrr... Dear and I already had plans to swim and tan but thanks to the morning rain, we don't have a choice but to cancel it. Worse thing is the rain just kept on going and going! We were practically stuck at home.

But mum wanna go shopping at Takashimaya. Well, why not? So when the rain got really manageable, mum, dear and I decided to make a quick move. Dinner at Soup Spoon was great. Think mum haven't enjoyed her soup for a really long time.

Since mum got her $140 Takashimaya cash voucher, shopping wasn't as tedious. Got an electric BBQ board, brother's Renoma underwear and my CK underwear. Yes, I'm a big sucker for CK underwear now. They are so comfortable that I can't resist buying more. And it's on sale now!

*grab*

Can't get a comforter though. Those at Takashimaya were astonishingly expensive! I'm sure we can get better deals else where. Perhaps it's time we make a trip to Robinsons or John Little.

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Christmas is a time for shopping and I seriously think the recession issue isn't so big after all. Look at the number of people queueing in front of Crystal Jade Restaurant! Look at the number of people in Takashimaya, Zara, Coach, Gucci, LV...

I agree that because of the recession, people are now more careful of what they put in their shopping bag but even if the branded boutiques are on sale, the remaining 30% is still way to expensive. At least for me lar. I can't afford the 30% even if LV is ever going to be on sale.

Seriously, where's the recession?

771. bolt

Rant of the day: Money no enough...

I've spent so much these 2 days but it's not for me. Hope dear will feel better with all the shopping. That sort of settled her CNY clothes where I've yet to start thinking about mine. I've got my shoes and jeans. So, probably need to get a few tops will do.

Watched Bolt last night with dear! It's damn nice. Must watch! About this dog, Bolt, that was brought up to make it feel as if it is a super dog. But the poor dog doesn't know, thinking that it has super powers. And one fine day, it got lost outside the set.

(Image from http://disney.go.com/disneypictures/bolt/)

Bolt is sooooooo cute and sort of resembles Deric. That pointy ears, white fur, black nose and small paws. But too bad, the tail not the same. I'm sure the animators used Japanese Spitz or something similar to draw Bolt.

Look so much like Deric right? Awwwwww... So sweet... Anyway, Deric is so big now that carrying him is a chore.

Next movie to watch -- Twilight! I'm sure dear will enjoy it too! Muacks!

770. understanding

Rant of the day: The long weekend don't seems long enough.

Sometimes, I don't think I make a good boyfriend...

Sometimes, I don't think I'm really ready to get into a relationship...

Sometimes, I don't think I can what my better half want...

Sometimes, I don't think I don't think I should get attached...

When I get attached, I wanna share my joy with the person that I'm holding onto. I wanna love her with all my heart and soul. I wanna bring her happiness. I wanna show her the future that we can build together. A family... House... Car... Cards... Children... Stable income... It is sort of the Singaporean dream. But is it really a dream?

"You don't understand women!" -- A sentence that every man in this world will hear. And seriously, only women will whine and pass such irresponsible comment. Since when did guys complain to their woman that they don't even fucking understand their own man in the first place?

And even if the guy did mentioned, they say "You always kept quiet! How to understand you?". Contradicting sentences but seriously, whatever...

To me, this kinda comment has a certain level of despise. If said in a wrong tone or follow with a wrong statement, it actually implies "You are fucking stupid!". So what's the purpose of going out with a stupid guy? Go out and find a better guy who "understands" women lar. We shall see if the level of "understanding" maintains the same after screwing you upside down on the bed without true love in place.

I'm hurt to a certain extend when such statement is used on me.

You see, there is a difference between a guy who you have not been going out with but seems to "understand" you and a guy whom you had been seeing for a while but is not "understanding" you better as compared to the former.

What is a real "understanding"? The first guy obviously don't understand you but because both the guy and the gal has so much to explore about one another, they seems to "understand" what each other wants. This is the fake veil that appears in between both because you are both in the state infatuation. And we all know, mere infatuated relationship will not last.

So, wondered why the second guy don't seems to understand you? Because you had already explored enough and seen the good, bad and ugly of the other half. If it is true love, you will still be together and try to work out the difference. That is the REAL understanding!

Think again before telling your better half that they don't understand you. Don't fall into a trap where both of you understand one another so well that now, he/she don't seems to understand you. Because, tendency is that you will fall back and wish for the infatuation state to relive (probably with a different person) and that is dangerous.

769. confessions

Rant of the day: Tired lar... Long weekend when sia...

I have a confession to make -- I fell asleep in office every morning this whole week.

I'm supposed to start work at 8am but I'm really so blardy tired that the moment I sat down, my eyes start to close. The next moment, I'll grab my jacket and nuggles into them before dozing off. But I'll wake up be 8.20am lar. Can't afford to let my boss sees me sleeping right? She start work at 8.30am. Haha... So, just in time lar.

This goes to show how damaging "late night clubbing" + "straining next-day event" is. Which also explains why I'm so blardy tired...

So, I'm so looking forward to this coming long weekend. It's resting time! But it will be project pia-ing time also. Need to send in the stuff before Christmas. Guessed it's the lecturers "best" Christmas present. Time for them to pia everything on time so that they can enjoy their Christmas and New Year. Ya lar... ang mohs event...

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I've got another confession to make -- I'm praying real hard the guai lan group gets to present LAST on Saturday.

Last Saturday's presentation was not exactly the most enjoyable one but I had probably made it a lil more enjoyable that people were actually laughing during my presentation. Haha... The atmosphere wasn't in the right settings.

Every team was given only 7 minutes to present and the next 7 minutes will be the time for the class and lecturer to ask questions. This will be the best time for the classmates to help the presenting team to fill up the whatever gaps so that the project will be better. Howver, there was this extremely annoying team who consistently rushed to ask questions. Might sounded "helping" but if you think a lil further, they are actually trying to put you down.

What the fark!

But I think I had made the blardy Chinese-but-cannot-speak-Chinese guy sia suay by throwing back his own questions...

Him: "I felt your presentation very loaded."
Me: "Loaded?"
Him: "Yeah. Loaded. Very emotionally loaded."
Me: "So is that a question?"
Him: "Well... I don't know... And maybe..."
Me: "So what do you suggest?"
Him: "Well... I'm not so sure but..."
* lecturer interrupts *

Stupid right? He seriously don't know how many such presentation situations I had already been through lar. Try harder lar...

Too bad. Can't really explain how badly screwed up were their presentation. So nice to see the class working together to SHOOT them down!

Ever since the class embarks the final year with those who had relevant diplomas and came in with 1.5 years advance, the presentations were never peacefully conducted. I seriously don't understand what most of the new addition people are trying to prove?

We all have equal chances and strengths. With your previous qualifications, it doesn't really make you better than any others. Since we are in the same class now, it only means we all are on equal footing.

768. zirca

Rant of the day: I feel fat...

Guess you know about the closure of MoS and the replacement by Zirca.

We were there just to check out that place and were sort of prepared for high covers but thanks to dear's friend (who happened to be there) had the sms invites and we entered FREE! Haha... And guess what, there was free flow of selected cocktails till about 11 plus!

The concept is sort of incorporating cirque and other fringe performances, together with the dance club. The only bad point is that the Zirca is not linked to the other 2 rooms under the same company -- Rebel (RnB room) and Yello Jello (Retro room). Which means you will have to re-queue again! Sianz...

As for the music, unfortunately, they plays only dance music. Not really my cup of tea but I'm ok with it though. I'm more of a RnB person lar.

The moment we walked in, the hanging peeps caught our attention almost immediately. Absolutely cool lar! Photo quality sucks lar.

As the night goes on, there were also performances by skimpily dressed dancers. Hip-hop dancers, pole dancers and other sexy dancers.

The large lighted background suddenly transformed itself to a stage! Managed to record the first act. Haha...

Think the covers ain't that expensive also. Will be there again if I have the time, energy and money to spare. Who wants to go?

767. euthanasia

Quote of the day: Who should decide whether you live or die?

Group project discussion are never fun when everyone is extremely tired and sleepy. The brain simply not running lor. On auto shut down mode...

But I'm glad things moved on with something.

Euthanasia (安乐死) has always been a hot topic since I was in secondary school. Who can decide whether should you move on to another phase of life? The family members? Doctor? Yourself?

Ask yourself this -- if you are terminally ill and death is just around the corner, do you want to:
1) Continue living till your heartbeat halt? In this, you incur heavier financial, emotional and physical burden to those around you. Also, continue with all the pain and sufferings.
2) Opt to end your life? With this, lighten the financial and physical burden. Emotional wise, time will wash the pain away. Also, stop all the pain and sufferings once and for all.

Tough choice? I might prolly choose (2). I had seen too many pain on those who are terminally ill and there is practically no second option.

But there are too many things to consider. As we all know, Singapore has yet to allow euthanasia to be practise legally. What I can think of are the following factors that had caused the gahmen to put the plan on hold for sooooooooo long:

1) Ethical issues
Does euthanasia equates to committing suicide or allowing murder? Logically, a live is lost isn't it? Allowing euthanasia could means the society now accepts peeps to commit or attempt suicide and there could be no excuse to it. Technically, when a person attempt suicide is when this person wishes to stop any the pains and sufferings (physically and/or mentally).

Also, with euthanasia, it could means life now is so cheap and has no longer any meanings to it. Life might be taken lightly from than on since anyone can end it legally.

On another point, such euthanasia should be administered by a doctor. We are all brought up in the ideological society where doctor saves lives. So, if they are allowed to perform euthanasia on their willing patients, aren't they directly/indirectly killing someone?

2) Religious issues
Most religion deem ending a living life a sin. There will be circulation of objections by religious groups. How can we kill ourselves? It is the same as killing a living thing. To the Christian, "thou shall not kill" stops others from killing. Think there is something similar to the Muslims and the Buddhist and I believe, most religion practices something like that.

3) Social issues
When the society allows such euthanasia, will the social culture mutate? Seeing your friends and family all opt for euthanasia, you will sort of be influenced to take up euthanasia too right? It's the "you do it so I also wanna do it" kinda mentality. Isn't it scary?

If you "kill" yourself, who will be there for your family? If you are married, your better half will be widowed. Your kids will lose a father/mother. The family will be "unnaturally" broken. Emotionally, the kids might have adverse effects and yet, they are still in the growing stage. This might lead to mental issues in the future.

So, do you support euthanasia?

766. mannequin

Rant of the day: Not enough manpower! Still having more than 70 outstanding emails!

I love this song!!! Britney's new album, Circus, will be out in December.

Not sure if I had put up this video before. It's Britney's dance rehearsal for the song, Mannequin. Fark lar. See liao make me legs itchy... wanna go clubbing again.

765. scholarship

Rant of the day: Why Deric like to poo poo and shh shh outside his designated tray?

I can't imagine the 1 week school break is gonna be over soon! I've yet to enjoy myself and it's back to school again. So fast...

Guess almost everyone in class heard about the splitting of class into 2 and be conducted by 2 different lecturers for the coming module. Perhaps due to the size of the class and it had to be split in order to complete all presentation. But think about it again, wouldn't there be a discrepancy with the scoring criteria since the class is now graded by different people? Bias will exist ya?

Just heard that there was this scholarship application thingy earlier on and I wasn't informed! the application deadline is long OVER! So sad right? The school puts everything online, assuming that we will all know. But seriously, not everyone has the time to login to the slow portal and reads the stuff there. And also, the message weren't spread by the rest of the class properly.

Perhaps when it comes to such money matters, everyone just keep it for themselves. Inform one person less means less one competitor right? So now, Glenn's gonna help me ask if the school is willing to take in another application even though is almost 2 weeks behind the deadline.

It's really tough to support the school fees and daily expenses yourself when your pay isn't that level yet. The school fees already zapped away most of my salary and savings, leaving just a lil enough for food, transport and miscellaneous expenses due to commitment. Many might not even have an idea what kinda of life I'm living.

Scrimp and save so that I will have enough for school fees.

Scrimp and save so that I can hang out with my friends.

Scrimp and save so that I can go pak tor with dear.

Unfortunate not to be borned with a sliver spoon in my mouth?

Was chatting to Glenn a while ago and perhaps, he is right about something -- when I finish my study, I will be so proud of myself that I finally achieved it with my own bare hands. Those who had their school fees paid by family will never experience such sense of achievement in their life...

Now, fortuante not to be borned with a sliver spoon in my mouth?

Guess it all depends on how we look at our own life right? Whether unfortunate or fortunate, it is a life that we have to keep moving forward. Our life can never be moving backward fyi.

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Spent the whole Sunday away from laptop. Sort of enjoyed it. Breakfast at MacD with mum. Lunch and shopping at Ikea with mum, dear, brother and Kelly. More shopping at a pet megastore at Pasir Ris Farmway. Watch TV with mum for the whole evening. Drove dear home while cursing and swearing at those seriously STUPID drivers.

Life can be so simple without Internet. Haha...

764. 明天以后

Rant of the day: I'm so farking tired lar...

好歌就是要一起分享。大家都常看到Raymond林峰的电视连续剧在优频道或8频道上放映。没想到他唱歌也是蛮有味道的。能唱能演又高大威猛的男艺人老实说，真的不多了。而现在在市场上最亮眼的这类男艺人，应该就是Raymond了。女人喜欢、男人妒忌。

现在就来听听他最新专辑里与泳儿合唱的主打歌，《明天以后》。这首歌不好唱噢！

763. crazy people

Question of the day: 懒人屎尿多。我不懒。但是为什么我的屎尿也多呢？难道是因为我“堵懒”(read "du lan") 吗？

Met 2 crazy people at Dhoby Ghaut NEL MRT in a mere 5min. A lady who wants to play the "musical chair" with me and a man who suddenly shouted "fuck you" damn loudly into his mouth piece.

Dear and I found a seat in the station while waiting for the train to arrive. She sat down first. I nudged my bag and wanna take a sit. Just as my butt barely touches the seat, a mid-aged auntie sat down behind me and pushed my butt out. Fun ah? Looks like she really missed the fun of musical chair.

Then, as we were waiting for the train, a guy in his twenties suddenly shouted "fuck you" into his mouth piece attached to his mobile. Eh, relac lar young man. The phone waves can only take up to a decibel. No point shouting into your phone like that. And anyway, the person at the other end had prolly pulled his/her phone away from their ear. So shout for what? Like to shout, go KTV and use mic lor.

Crazy people...

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The complain against the lecturer began to light up again. And this time, the class rep is writing a formal complain letter to the school. Not just the existing lao jiaos, even the newly joined peeps also wish to have a say in this complain.

Whatever the case is, we wouldn't be taught by her again... right?

762. write songs

Rant of the day: I dread stepping into office every morning...

I keep forgetting about buying batteries for my alarm clock until when I'm back home, in my bedroom and looking at it now! Shit man. Getting old...

Anyway, it's good to know that your friend is getting married soon. But the not exactly very good news is that she wants me to help her compose a song for her and the hubby to sing and to be played during her wedding dinner!

Erm... well... I did wrote a handful of songs lar but not "joyful" songs lor! My songs are typically the emo type. What if it sounded sad? What if the song turns out funny? What if it sucks? What if I screw up the atmosphere? Shit man. Why am I worrying so much? I think I better try composing a versatile song in case her hubby don't wanna sing (because she say he cannot sing properly).

Hmmmmmm. What a challenge!

Remember David Archutela? Yup, the super young boy from American Idol (was it season 5?) who came up strong and steady to clinch the runner up position. His vocal is really good! Here's his new song, Crush, from his first album.

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

761. strongly disagree

Rant of the day: I wanna X'mas to come quickly...

Dammit. This is my first time someone rated "strongly disagree" for my workshop on the presenter's effectiveness. I know if I'm good or not by just looking at the response of the class ok. Looking at today's class participation, I think I'm damn good lar. So I'll assume the person see the scale wrongly.

Whatever...

I'm getting busier as day goes by. Now, to a point where it's hard to breathe... AGAIN!!! When I was asked if I enjoyed/satisfied with what I'm doing during my mid-year appraisal, guess what I said to my bosses?

"This is just a job for me to support my school fees. I don't like what I'm doing except when I'm talking in front of people during seminars or workshops. That was when I felt I'm alive and self-satisfied."

Not sure if my reply was fool-hardy and reckless one or if I'm brave to say such things to my bosses. But seriously, there is so lil things to make me feel passionate about my job. And really, I'm staying on because I need the money to support my daily expenses and school fees.

Cheng commented something really interesting -- do the bosses "enjoyed" or feel "self-satisfied" on what they are doing when they ask their staff such questions during appraisal? I think they are just following through the "motion". Ask for the sake of asking...

I now dread to go to work everyday...

760. renovation

Rant of the day: I feel my presence when I'm talking in front of people...

If you realised, my blog is under-going some "renovation" right now and it's gonna take a while to look slightly nicer as I'm still figuring out the codes. I'm still trying to migrate those stuff from my previous blog template to this one. And yes, I'm using their default skin now because of the archival widget. Much neater right?

In the meantime, I'll still update when I need to scream.

759. free advert

Rant of the day: I'd wasted my Sunday too... =(

Ok, I'd promised my buddy to help him do a small advert announcement for him, even though looking at the number of visitors are pathetic lar. But I guess you will never know who is really reading your blog right?

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Ok, I'm not earning anything out of this advert but to help out my friend. Anyway, since the economy is quite bad, it might be time for some companies to seek help. So, call my friend if you really need it. Save your business before it's too late.

758. dinner and dance

Rant of the day: I got no life... ;-(

Obviously I got no life till the point that I'm blogging now...

I'm just back home after Dinner and Dance. Was hoping that the Saturday night will not be wasted, especially it is after my exam, it's time to relax. But in the end, it's WASTED! No clubbing... No KTV... So sad...

Anyway, let the photos do some talking.

My only photo that sort of captured what I wore. So depress. Cannot find an appropriate white vest. Wasted my day today searching for it also in Bugis area. Ended up buying watermelon juice instead of searching. Black fitting shirt, $59.90, from Zara. Skinny white tie, $18, from 77th Street. White leather belt with cross buckle, $30++, from Guess. Dark denim, $69.90, from Levi Strauss Signature. White leather loafers (not shown), $99, from Pedro. Watch with interchangeable straps, $200++, from Titus.

Yup, a photo to show my lil brother and I working in the same organisation. If there is any retrenchment exercise, we could both jolly well lose our job together. Nice... And yes, my brother is wearing my black vest!!!

That's me with the mascots. Introducing Elvis and Marilyn! Gosh... The Elvis too tall and scrawny lar!

I'm trying to fake a photo at the piano can? I seriously know nuts about the "tao gehs" thing.

Members on our table. Judy is missing as she's really missing somewhere in Suntec at the point of shoot. Haha.

The food was good. Not excellent but really, what can you expect when you only paid $8? There's already sharkfin soup, salmon, prawns with wasabi and a really nice pomelo desert! Of course, there are other stuff lar.

Ah... I'm still so bored!!! There goes my Saturday.

*sigh*

757. my phone

Rant of the day: So sad...

I think passing the paper shouldn't be a problem but scoring it is the problem. Think I might get my very first credit. S-H-I-T!!! There goes my degree with distinction liao.

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Anyway, I don't think I'll ever get another Sony Ericsson phone. Sent my phone for repair for the third time in a year! Yes, I haven't even used it for more then a year! It just kept restarting... restarting... and restarting like 4 to 6 times a day. How irritating can it get.

So I'm sort of caught in the middle now. I cannot upgrade my phone because my contract has yet to pass 12 months. I cannot buy new phone without contract because my wallet don't allow. I got no time to keep sending my current phone for repair even though I know the problem will comes back. The service centre REFUSED to change a new model for me even though they sort of already know this model SUCKS big time.

I didn't mean to be a difficult customer at the service centre but they sort of peeved me and mum off totally. All they can do is to change a motherboard. If the problem lies with the model, will changing motherboard helps? It's gonna come back right? Totally brainless.

When probed on the request to change new phone if I come back for the forth time, guess what the supervisor at the Wisma Atria service centre says... "There's nothing I can do." Seriously, if your company opens up a service centre, pays you to be a supervisor, and there's nothing you can do, I think it's time for you to pack you bag and go home.

Whatever the case is, it takes just one bad experience to change a person's attitude and perception to a brand, product or services.

Come to think about it, I had been using Sony Ericsson's phone for many years. Since T65 to K750i to K800i and now, W910i, I had always been quite a faithful user but things are going to change. No more other Sony Ericsson... at least for now...

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It's Dinner and Dance tomorrow and I was trying to dress like Rain on his latest album cover but I think I'd flunked. Cannot find a good and affordable white vest! Either too expensive or not right design or no size. Sian...

But at least I got my white Pedro shoes, black Zara fitting shirt and white skinny tie. So together with my dark Levi Strauss Signature jeans and my white Guess belt, think I don't look so bad lar. Still can make it, except nothing close to Rain of course. So sad...

Really wanna go clubbing since I'm already so properly dressed but dear fell sick and prolly no one else would wanna go clubbing nowadays. Wear so nice but no one to see. So sad... But dear, please rest well ok. Drink more water. Recover liao then we go clubbing again. =)

756. neurological test‏

Good deed of the day: I donated blood again. It's like an annual task. Haha...

How do you know if your brain is working fine? Take the following test. Sit back, relax and stay CALM! Oh yes, don't play cheat by using your cursor and highlight hor!

Qn 1. Find "C" below.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOCOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Qn 2. Attempt only after you have complete Qn 1. Find "6".

9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999 9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999 9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999 9999699999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999 9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999 9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999

Qn 3. Now, find "N".

MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMNMMMM MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

If you were able to pass these 3 tests, you can cancel your annual visit to your neurologist. Your brain is great and you're far from having Alzheimer Disease. Congratulations!

755. voice demo

Rant of the day: My chest felt a lil pain now...

I think I should start preparing my voice demo to send to 93.3FM. Need to know what to say, how to say and get it recorded. Seriously, even though I wish I can be a DJ, I'm not exactly sure if I fit the bill.

It's dear's accounting paper tomorrow. Dear, 加油! I know you can do it. Muacks! While dear will be in school in the morning, I need to reach school in the evening just to submit the assignment. Ok, it's alot of hard work from the team. Great job peeps.

Can't imagine my weekend just ended. I had not been enjoying my weekends recently. So sad. It's either school work or other miscellaneous stuff that kept me occupied, not exactly in the most enjoyable way. But I'll be on leave on coming Thursday to study for my exam... erm... on coming Friday. Shit! Just 1 day to study.

I'm sure most Chinese song listeners would had heard of this group - 神木与瞳. Their songs are really good. If you realised, the song that is currently playing is their song. That was their first wave.

Now, enjoy another of their hit, 草戒指.

再見說在額頭 原來淚也會痛 倒流心中怎麼麻醉也沒用
深呼吸一分鐘 愛突然的詞窮 你狠狠甩開我沉默的手彷彿就劇終

草戒指在手中 像句點的沉默 woo...
明天 以後 愛變成了問候

愛不愛都痛 我以為我懂 最後你要自由 woo...
忘了溫柔要套在手中

到最後 該不該回頭 如果我開口 愛繼續往前走 woo...
幸福聽著分開的藉口

再見說在額頭 原來淚也會痛 倒流心中怎麼麻醉也沒用
深呼吸一分鐘 愛突然的詞窮 你狠狠甩開我沉默的手彷彿就劇終

草戒指在手中 像句點的沉默 woo...
明天 以後 愛變成了問候

愛不愛都痛 我以為我懂 最後你要自由 woo...
忘了溫柔要套在手中

到最後 該不該回頭 如果我開口 愛繼續往前走 woo...
幸福聽著分開的藉口

愛不愛都痛 我以為我懂 最後你要自由 woo...
忘了溫柔要套在手中

到最後 該不該回頭 如果我開口 愛繼續往前走 woo...
幸福聽著分開的藉口
草戒指套在誰的手中

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Just to quickly share this funny joke. Laugh it loud now... Haha...

Dr. Quek made a routine house call to Mr. Lim, one of his elderly patients.

He asks, "And how are you doing today, Mr. Lim?"

Mr. Lim replies, "I feel just fine, doc. But you know, it's the strangest thing. Every night when I get up to pang jio, the bathroom light goes on for me automatically when I open the door!"

The doctor is worried that the old man is getting senile, so he phones the man's son, and the son's wife answers.

The doctor tells her, "Mrs. Lim, I'm a little concerned about your father-in-law. Tt seems that when he gets up to urinate at night and opens the bathroom door, the light somehow goes on..."

At which point, Mrs. Lim yells, "Aiyoh, Ah Seng! Ah Pa pang jio in the fridge again!"

754. walk

Special note: It doesn't matter to me whether are you gaining weight or not. It's you that matters to me...

I walked home from dear's place just now...

I need some time for nothing and no one else but myself. Alot of things flashes through my mind. All snippets of memories, words and people. Tears accumulated at the corners of my eyes. Tears dried up as breeze kissed my face.

Maybe I deserved what's happening to me...

Maybe I am the problem...

Maybe I shouldn't even exist...

Shit! Why am I typing all these when I rushing my project!

753. 满嘴螺丝

Rant of the day: My throat feels strained...

今天的workshop办得还不错。至少我本人觉得我仍然是branch里最会主持这类活动的人。不是脸皮厚，但是老实说，branch里没几个能够撑像seminar或workshop这类型的场面。能够自然的演讲。能够给准确的答案。能够乱哈拉但不伤大雅。能够成为全场焦点。能够保持现场的气氛。

老实说，对以上的强项我是满自豪的。哈哈……

但是今天的新闻播报课，却觉得自己超孬种。很想却一直不敢自告奋勇的在班上念新闻稿。很害怕会频吃螺丝。去年的明星DJ比赛时，已经领教过念新闻简讯念到满嘴螺丝了。可能就是这样，一直由心理障碍。很怕在不认识的人面前“丢脸”。

真的是惭愧……

五天的DJ课程一眨眼就要了结。说真的，学的都是非常表面的东西。可能是时间的关系而致课程只能覆盖表面的东西。很可惜。如果能有机会到现场的录音室去现场体会的话会是最理想的。如果能安排我们上空中说话会是最棒的！Ok，我在痴人说梦话了。哈哈！

Hmmmmm……下一届的明星DJ争霸赛会是几时？我一定要参加！一定要比上一次做得更好！

752. 培训课程

Rant of the day: 好累……好累……

电台DJ培训课程已过了一半了。大致上都很逗趣、很搞笑。超爱慧诗和玛丽的课。真的是笑翻了！！！今天更高兴的是能拿到玛丽的亲笔签名！她是我很欣赏的DJ哦！就觉得她很机智也很灵活，反应非常快。不是每一名DJ都能做到像玛丽这样出色的。

当然，突然觉得我似乎离我的DJ梦越来越远了。为什么呢？

第一，93.3FM好像已饱和了。DJ人数已足够了。虽然是不排除会在接受具有潜质的DJ，但机会是多么多么的渺茫啊……

第二，班里的学生都似乎人才济济。想突出自己的优点谈何容易。

第三，对自己的能力保持很大的怀疑。觉得只能说，不会写。这样的DJ很难立足。

第四，虽然已有头绪因该如何把自己“介绍”出去。但是，会有消息吗？

嗨……还是上完了这个课程再看看要如何pick up吧。好没有信心哦……

跟大家分享这个超搞笑的对话。是今天发生的！！！

公司电话响起。
我：Good afternoon XXXX. This is Eric speaking. How may I help?
他：My payroll department people just downloaded the trial Offline Application.
*很长的pause*
我：And?
他：Are you aware?
我：（我当然aware啦！你刚刚说了嘛！）Ok and?

很奇怪。打电话进来不问问题，却make a statement。那我要怎样帮呢？打求助热线就是要求助的嘛。打通了又不“求助”。真的不知道要如何形容。又好哭、又好笑。

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今天是K-Pop的演唱会。Dear有机会能出席但似乎玩得不是很高兴。但至少能看到她的偶像Wonder Girls。还唱了两首歌。不错了啦。

似乎又是一个很快走红的韩国团体，2PM。跳得还不错哦！如果我也能跳到这样好的话就好咯！

751. rude laptop

Rant of the day:

My laptop just rudely restarted... All thanks to the updating of my Adobe stuff.

It's blardy rude lor! Was happily typing halfway and pop... the laptop restarted. Irritating!!!

I'm gonna get really busy in office again. 雪特！

750. emotion fridge

Rant of the day: 我不会哄女孩……我也需要人来哄……

I don't know how to start or where to start...

I had been staring at this page for a good 20min and still nothing comes out. I know I should write something to vent or release my frustration but it's gonna hurt, so decided to keep within myself.

Like what Hans used to describe me -- emotion fridge. Sometimes it's better to reserve some stuff to myself.

I'm feeling very emotionally and mentally stressed... strained... stale...

*sigh*

Think I go cut nails lah...

749. duh conversation

Rant of the day: My eyes very dry... hurhur...

A very duh conversation...

Me: My company D&D is after exam. So, will need to go shopping after exam.
Sharon: Oh. Any theme?
Me: Ya. Super star.
Sharon: What or who you gonna dress like?
Me: Rain.
Sharon: You? Rain?
Me: Ya. I'm HEAVY Rain.

Haha...

748. many thanks

Rant of the day: Tired... I wanna rest...

First and foremost, I would like to thank the entire Green Bean Enterprise team. Thank you Royston, Benjamin Chia, Benjamin James, Sharon, Siew Hoon, Dinah and Jo. The presentation success was the result of your commitment in this whole project. It's finally over and done. The information covered were really substantial enough to tide us through the whole 25min.

Whatever disagreement that happened along the way were just part and parcel of the process. Without all these arguments and disagreements, our brain will not think and this whole business idea would had been submerged in our sub-consciousness.

I'll also wish to sincerely apologise for any of my tardiness to anybody during our project discussions (but I don't think I had unknowingly hurt anyone right?).

Anyway, you guys rocks!

Back on today's presentation, all went really well. Except that I was really unprepared and nervous to take over most of the presentation due to some unforeseen circumstance. But all ended well. At least we wasn't shot down by any questions, or rather, there wasn't any questions to start with.

Some lessons learnt from yesterday's and today's presentation.

1) Don't be arrogant if you cannot afford to be.
Basically, if your project sucks big time, keep your mouth shut. Don't go on shooting questions at other teams. It only made you look stupid when it's your turn to present.

2) Get your facts complete.
If your facts ain't complete, you look like a complete loser when saying your "facts". This class is made up of working adults. We ain't those secondary school kids who had no idea what is happening in our offices and surroundings.

3) Inter-group collaboration
As many groups might not meet the time given, it will be good if some pre-presentation discussions within groups to be established. Make full use of the QnA time to "complete" the presentation. It's the final chance to save your friends.

4) Time check
25min ain't long for a presentation but it ain't short either. If the project is targeted have lotsa information, then it is time to do a material check on what to say and what to skip. Say the important portion. Time check... Time check...

5) Inject life
If I got bored by just sitting though 1 presentation, imagine what the lecturer is feeling after sitting through 4 - 5 presentations. It's gonna be complete boredom with extra suicidal inclination. Please put in some life to the speech. We all know presentations are usually boring but why follow the majority? It's time to be different.

That sort of sums up the basic learning points. Haha... What's next? It's exam time!!! Time to start mugging... Ok, I prolly wouldn't mug like most lar...

747. busy busy busy

Rant of the day: The work wouldn't be last minute if my boss can make up her mind.

Got my contact lens finally. But it will be nice if someone sponsors my lasik (bladeless) operations. Heehee. I wouldn't mind some free make overs too. And perhaps a car to make my travelling less painful. Oh come on, make my wish come true... X'mas is just around the corner ya... =P

Well, craps aside. I'm like soooooooo busy at work today. But it could had been prevented if my boss can be decisive. The whole planning thing had been dragging and dragging and now, she wants everything to be finalised... erm... like a few days before releasing to the news. Right........

So, I'm practically working my heads off today. Prepare the amended slides. Check and test the PCs. Prepare the amended course outline and structure. On top of these, still have to carry out daily ops like, handling correspondences, updating information, clear queries and other miscelleanous stuff. Not missing out my toilet breaks and coffee walks. What about munching and gossip time? See, I'm so busy!!!

Think the whole of this week and next week, I'll be so engage in work and personal stuff. Whole of next week is already booked, Monday to Friday, as you would already know. Have my presentation this Thursday and I'm going back school to observe how Kam Lin runs the presentation and her expectation. Friday... do I have anythingn on Friday? Saturday and Sunday, as usual, for dear but this time only one of the days perhaps. She's doing her revision and I should also start on my revision. And I need to straighten my hair!!! Shit...

Oh well... I hate my job but I don't have a choice right?

This is funny. Spoof of the Wonder Girls. Everyone, let's welcome the Wonder Boys!!! Thanks Jo.

Ok, hope you didn't puke your breakfast/lunch/dinner/whatever you ate you pig! Haha. This is the real MV for Wonder Girls' So Hot. Enjoy...

746. no long weekend

Rant of the day: Hate it... Tuesday blues...

Why does time passes so fast? I had yet to enjoy my long weekend!!! Spent most of my time doing projects and projects. But luckily, managed to squeeze a lil time for mum and dear, for at least dinner.

Dear didn't enjoy this long weekend I suppose. Her first paper is tomorrow. And then, more papers follows. Baby, 加油!!! You can do it. Muacks!

As for me, presentation will be on coming Thursday. First group somemore... Sad. At least I can be away for next week for my DJ course. It ain't cheap, so gotta work hard for it. It's a chance for me to get expose to this industry.

I must start preparing my presentation scripts tomorrow. Rehearse... rehearse... rehearse... must bear in mind the time allowed. It's time to impress again. Eric, you had done it so many times and this time, you can do it again! Perhaps, even better.

Gambatte~~必胜~~

745. osteoporosis day

Relieve of the day: Almost there...

I'm not affected by this disease yet but I think it's good for everyone to be sort of aware of this on-going issue. Think about it... it's scary if a slight fall can kill. Osteporosis, a problem where our bones gets weak and brittle.

Anlene launched this new Anlene Concentrate. Comes in 4 packets per pack. Each packet contains 4x more calcium then our normal 2 glasses of milk!

The Osteoporosis Day is already over but you can still get the milk from any supermarts. The roadshow was held at AMK Hub when mum, dear and I happened to walk pass that day.

Mum was jogging on the spot vigorously, hoping to win the $800 cash and 3 months supply of the Anlene Concentrate.

Doing a check on her bones. Results ain't very promising mum... More milk please. So mum happily grabbed about 6 packs, which gives her a total of 24 packets to last her... erm... 1 month?

I think I'm quite safe... for now. I drink milk EVERY morning!!! It's like my daily regime. Haha. Good advice to start early. Why wait right?

744. customer service

Rant of the day: I wanna go for a holiday... Sobz...

Who ever says customer service is terrible island-wide in Singapore, this person have not done his/her shopping enough.

Was with dear at Sim Lim Square late evening earlier on to grab a router since hers failed. After getting it, decided to pop by OG, which is just around the corner, hoping to get some CK underwear that might be on sale. But too bad. Apparently, they don't carry CK anymore. Sad...

We didn't buy much... seriously. But at the moment when we are stepping out from OG, the security man suddenly greeted in the most cheery tone "Good evening. Thank you for shopping." How nice!!!

This is my first time hearing such greetings from a security man in a departmental store. I'm not hearing things am I?

743. high school musical 3

Rant of the day: There's many things I wanna say but I can't... I'm sorry...

Watched High School Musical 3 just a while ago. I'm not exactly a High School series fan but watching it because it's dear's favourite and I'm quite sure it's not a lousy movie.

Songs were good. Casts were cute, bubbly, jumpy and extremely young. Plot was ok, mainly talking about dreams, graduation, prom... Yes, this reminds me that I NEVER had a prom!!! All thanks to the SARS shit... Still remember all the hype about getting people to group together for prom. Planning what to wear and who to "jio". Thinking how to save up for the expensive tickets. But because of the SARS incident, all mass events were cancelled. Sad...

Back to the movie. Zac Efron can sing quite well. Vanessa Hudgens has pretty wide vocal range but her voice is too squeaky for my liking. Ashley Tisdale seems to have a better voice but she somehow has Christina Aguilera's shadow. And can't remember the name of the guy who played Ashley's twin brother but he has sharper features than Zac and can also sing quite well.

But I guess I'm a lil too old for such movies. Doesn't really connect to it but it's a pretty decent movie to go for.

Dear enjoyed it alot. Don't ask me how I know 'cause I simply knew it...

742. 谈归属感

Rant of the day: I am very hurt...

此刻的我，压力是极度的大。看得到的压力、看不到的压力……不管是谁，都在知觉或不知觉中给了我压力。我快窒息了……

归属感……一个大家都在找寻的东西。你是否曾感觉自己不属于办公室的一分子呢？办公室政治是否紧紧的掐着喉咙，无法呼吸？觉得自己天天被人“暗算”？觉得身边的上司或同事都不能信？觉得自己很孤立？觉得大家给你的微笑都好假？

归属感……因为办公室里无法给你归属感，你才会有以上的感觉。感觉过于强烈时，你就会引咎辞职。然后，就会大喊一声“痛快”！心里也会暗爽的觉得“而梦已结束”。

公司往往收到职员的辞职信时，就会展开一系列的“win back”策略。开一些让你“爽”一点的条件，希望能挽留您。如果支援辞职是因为“钱”或“福利”，可能这种策略会奏效。但是，如果要离开的原因是因为没有“归属感”，公司再怎么努力的挽留，都是白费心机的。

归属感……不单单只是你我在寻找的东西，也是公司再找的东西。员工就是资源。很多上司或老板都知道这个道理，但是大多数都不知道或装不知道如何留住资源的法门。

员工继续留在公司里，不单只是为了钱，也为了个人满足感。人需要被认同。人需要被鼓励。人需要朋友。少一点办公司整治，多一点人情味，工做里就不难感觉温暖。归属感就会自然而然的出现。

但是，说起来容易但做起来难。上司怕你比他强而计算你。上司怕背黑锅而暗算你。有人的地方就会有整治。这是不争的事实。

要在办公室里找归属感，难咯！！！

741. personality dna

Rant of the day: I hate my job

Something for you guys to know more about me lar...

About you

You are a Designer

As a DESIGNER, you are receptive to ideas and experiences, and enjoy the beautiful things in life, yet you are also grounded and realistic about yourself and the world.

You have a quiet appreciation for beauty in all its forms – in nature, in people, and in human creations from architecture to movies.

Instead of only focusing on functionality, you try to incorporate your good sense of style and taste into your choices.

At times you feel unsure of yourself, especially when confronted by other people.

You aren't the kind of person who insists on having things your way all the time – you are willing to go along with other people's opinions, even if you disagree.

Others may not know this about you, but you are very interested in new ideas, thoughts, expressions, and experiences. You enjoy learning and trying new things.

Although you are practical, you are anything but boring – you have depths to you that others cannot see.

The idea of doing the same thing every day for the rest of your life scares you – you need more excitement and challenge than that!

You have a remarkable eye for detail and precision, noticing things that others miss.

If you want to be different:

Have faith in your ideas, and voice them more often. Your unique perspective needs to be shared!

Allow yourself to become fully immersed in your dreams now and then. You can develop your aesthetic vision even further by allowing your imagination to flourish.

Be as open to your own wishes as you are to those of others.

How you relate to others

You are Advocating

Being social, empathic, and understanding makes you ADVOCATING.

Some people find being around others exhausting—but not you! You are energized by spending time with friends, and you are good at meeting new people.

One of the reasons you enjoy conversation as much as you do is that you often learn about yourself while talking things out with a friend; you realize things about your own beliefs while discussing them with others.

You have insight into what others are thinking and feeling. This ability allows you to be happy for others, and to commiserate when something has gone wrong for them.

You are highly compassionate, and being conscious of how things affect those close to you leaves you cautious about trusting others too hastily.

Despite these reservations, you are open-minded when it comes to your worldview; you don't look to impose your ways on others.

Your sensitivity towards others' plights contributes to an understanding—both intellectual and emotional—of many different perspectives.

As someone who understands the complexities of the world around you, you are reluctant to pass judgments.

If you want to be different:

While it's important to think about others, don't forget to take some time for yourself, and occassionally to put yourself first.

Take some time to spend with a few close friends; although it's difficult to find people to trust, it's worth the effort.

When you have great ideas, it can be hard to relinquish control, but it can also feel good to take the pressure off and enjoy someone else leading the way.

740. office politics

Question of the day: 那儿一种人会坐在马铃薯上面？(Answer at the bottom of this post)

Something we cannot run away from as long as you are in the working world -- office politics. But I felt the game this woman planning went a lil too far. I am not a push over. I am not someone that allows you to play like a pawn. I am not those peeps who will simply keep quiet and wait for you to stab left right centre.

Basically, I'm not someone to mess around in office...

I may keep quiet most of the time and forget about pursuing certain issues but NOT all the time. We shall see what will happen in the coming mid-year appraisal. It does not bode too well. Shall I bring a shield in?

I think I'm losing my passion for this job. Going to work everyday is a chore. I hate the moment my feet steps into the tunnel towards office. What's left behind are the "push and pull" factors to keep me moving.

Factors causing me to lose my passion for this job:
1) Bosses that lacks leadership
2) Back-stabbing seniors
3) Insane workload
4) Brainless colleague
5) No OT pay
6) Not my interest in the first place
7) Unproductive LONG meetings
8) Bosses that felt their employees lack communication but they are the one who can't communicate
9) Bosses who like to shoot/humiliate/insult their employees
10) Seriously under-staff

Push factors:
1) Need the money to study part time
2) Have girlfriend and there will definitely be higher expenses
3) Have my own indulgence to splurge on

Pull factors:
1) Not bad income
2) Close to home
3) Good cliques in office
4) Weekend and public holidays off
5) Good staff benefit

It all boils down to $$$. This job is definitely a tentative measure. I will move on when the time is right. When is the right time? I don't know. When my contract ends? When I can't take it and finally explode in office? When I finally found my dream job?

I hope I can peer into the crystal ball...

Answer: 男子汉。因为男子汉，敢“坐geng dang”（做敢当）。Geng dang在马来语代表马铃薯。

739. loving you

Quote of the day: Eh, Joanne ah... Lih deng lai liao ah. Jiak ba buay?

The song that always gives me goosebumps but I like. Minnie Riperton's Loving You.

Ok la. The video abit old but this DOES NOT reflect my age ok. I'm still young. I'm still 热血青年 (young and hot-blooded). Haha...

Dear, I'm loving you too. =)

738. birthdays

Rant of the day: Wallet very empty now. So sad...

I kinda got afraid of October... It's like almost a birthday month! Everyday I see Friendster birthday alert and it's not one or two, but a whole chunk of BIRTHDAYS!!! And you know what this means -- presents. I'd already paid like close to $400 for mum and brother's birthday stuff and so, I'm not buying anyone else's birthday present this year.

It's barely 2 weeks from my last pay day and I'm suffocating. Broke lar. Gimme a break... *sobz*

Since I'm not buying anything, I'd gotta wish ALL those October babies whom I know, a happy birthday. Wish you all the best. Wishes on blog is free. Muahahaha...

Presentation is just around the corner and things are not exactly on track but neither off track. Hope that everythng is gonna be fine and there's more to be done back in office!!! I'm drowning soon. Hello hello... Can someone throw me a float? I don't have enough fats to keep me floating...

Anyway, new single from Wonder Girls -- Nobody. Love the MTV. Talking about synchronised dance group, this is what I call 默契!!! Enjoy.

737. happy birthday mummy

Rant of the day: I'm so tired...

Not sure how many how you had already been here -- Southern Ridges. It's damn nice. Start from Harbour Front and end at the Hortpark, somewhere at the Alexandra area.

Had a chance to visit here earlier, from an event organised by Civil Service Club. I didn't want to shoot the woman actually but she just happened to be there when I took the shot.

Look at the number of attendees!!! "People mountian people sea" lor!!!

We were "bashing" through the floral and fauna, enjoying the seriously fresh air. But the journey is no joke. Almost climbing steps for at least 1km! So, if you seriously wanna come here, please be mentally perpared to climb and sweat ALOT.

By the time we reached Mount Faber, I'm already dripping sweat. Here's Jewel Box. If I'm ever rich, I'll visit here and enjoy.

I'm very attracted to this bridge. Look at the curves! It's like a wave through the canopy. The bridge is actually straight. It does not requires us to climb up and down la.

And this the the "curve" of the bridge. It's actually sort of a resting spot but without a proper shelter. Weird eh...

Closer to the final portion of the walk, there's this really nice canopy trail.

Anyway, didn't win any lucky draw. Think I'm not so lucky now. Quite down in luck rather. So, quickly left the place after the prizes were all given away. Rushing back home because it's mum's birthday!!! Brother and I had shared a HUGE gift for her this year. Yes, it cost us a bomb...

It's OSIM uSqueeze!!! Mum had been complaining the bad aches she's experiencing at her calves due to aging issue. So, we seriously hope this will help mum to relief her pain. Here she is, enjoying the good massage. I felt though a lil costly but totally worth the money.

End of today with mum's favourite strawberry shortcake. It's brother's birthday on Monday, so they sort of cut the cake together and celebrate together. There's gonna be a second round of celebration tomorrow at Marche. Hope mum will love it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!

736. 我输不起

Rant of the day: Why do I feel so lonely?

如果我无牵挂、无后顾之忧的话，我昨天可能会在会议里跟老板说：“If I cannot produce the expected results by YA2010, I'll tender. But if I can, I want to take over TKL's position. If you cannot promise me this, I want to resign from the project team lead.”

是自己想，自己爽的啦！哈哈。没办法啦，我有太多太多的顾虑必须考量了。我输不起……我真的输不起……

有妈妈。有女朋友。要读书。要吃饭。要喝水。有开销。公共交通。没庞大储蓄。你说我能这样的挑战老板吗？面子不是问题，因为我皮厚。我thick skin啦。但是一旦输了，对身边的人和日常起居的影响很大。赌注太大，但是筹码不够。不能玩啊。

轻松一点，一个小玩笑让大家笑一下。谢了P38。

有个男人去用餐。

男人：bo bo cha cha 多少钱？
女招待：摸摸插插五十。
男人：虾面呢？
女招待：下面一百。
男人：水饺呢？
女招待：睡觉两百。
男人惊问：一碗呢？
女招待：一晚五百。

735. 水の男人

Rant of the day: Protect my sanity...

我是水做的男人。不是因为流的汗多，而是因为眼泪多……

我哭，不是因为我娘娘腔，而是因为我对“悲伤”和“感伤”控制能力较差。我就是一个这样独特的男人。感动就哭，高兴就笑。情绪都一目了然的写在脸上。是优点，也是缺点。但是抒发后，也会心情平静下来。别为我担心。哭后的我会好过一些。

今天的meeting真的让我无言以对。我像是个夹心饼中间那层cream，被两个上司夹得紧紧的。说出我的不满也不是。不说出我的不满也不对。我就好像哑巴吃黄连，有苦难言……基本上，there's nothing I can say。现在，我只想好好得快点做完我份内的whatever shit然后就准备明年的繁忙期。时间快转吧……

当然，挨了训后也至少有一点头绪。Facilitator没facilitate好的后果就是这样。只能怪我自己倒霉。一方面是蛮高兴高层给对我有些许的认同，但另一方面，我为什么会中这位facilitator？倒霉倒大了！我对这类型的project是完全没有头绪。当你没有头绪时，也不知道该往哪一方面问。没关系。当你有问题向问时，有深怕facilitator给你一个完全没帮助的三小时的答案。两方的老板又似乎反自己的话。

我又能说什么呢？Die咯……自己顾自己咯。

当然，还是很谢谢传关心简讯的朋友。你们是真的很重要的。如果有一天，我忍无可忍的必须先行告退时，我一定会想念你们的。由你们这些关心我的同事在身旁，是我的福气。谢谢你们！有你们在的日子，生活过得没那么苦。