436. birthday surprise

Note of the day: Oh I love my K800i so much!

All turn's out well. Ok, not so well after all. We didn't really party much as the baggage deposit counter was full and the ladies decided to take an early depart. I mean we can't really enjoy with all the barang barang lying around right? And seriously, they should look into expanding the deposit counter area. Considering the branding and stuff like that, should the service be more well covered? By the way, we went to the famous club starting with "M".

Anyway, dear gave me a small surprise cake last night. I'm so touched. Gracias to the Malay couple whom offered us some champange outside Zouk when they knew that it's my birthday.

Took some photos outside Zouk and I love this photo best. Nicely taken by Arina. Thank you so much.

Just home from a small BBQ back at office. Dear and I were specially invited by my ex-colleagues. So nice of them. Elaine's birthday coming next month. So another round of BBQ coming up.

435. 寂寞生日

Rant of the day: 眼泪有很多种，可是为什么我的眼泪却以悲伤居多？

截至与现在，我的生日过的好寂寞……

早上一睡醒，马上看了看手机简讯，高兴的事还有人记得。轩安的一则生日祝福点亮了一天。不久后，Elaine的简讯也发来了。至少还能宣布说“I'm remembered”。

Dear一整天都很忙，因为她的好友结婚了（怎么这么巧！）。因为当她的“姐妹团”，就一直没什么时间休息吧。可能也就是如此，连发个简讯或打通电话都有心无力。知道dear在中午时以赶回家休息时，连发了好几则简讯给dear，但迟迟收不到回信。心想可能dear已经睡了，也不多打扰。就这样一直等，直到刚才在尝试打给dear，看是否以起床。原本想等dear一起床就马上赶到dear的家，陪一陪dear一下下。但还没开口说几个字，dear就要挂电话了。心里顿时闷了一下……

有这么忙吗？

不是睡觉吗？

越想心里就越闷。之后，dear才在去婚宴的路上打电话给我。一整天下来，到了现在才听到dear的生日祝福。问我是失望或者是高兴？老实说，我完全答不上。只知道眼泪马上夺眶而出，像是断了线的珠链，一颗一颗落了下来……是失望的泪还是高兴的泪？我真地说不出来。复杂的心情反复在心中上演着。

也就今年的生日过得很空闲，下午就约了June喝个下午茶。都是June请哦！Arigato！不只是喝咖啡和吃沙律而已，还有迟来的farewell礼物。好高兴！因为是巧克力，而且不是水水便便街上买得到的巧克力哦。是贵的！不止，还有可爱的farewell卡！好可爱哦！上面都签了工作岗位上，最好的朋友的签名。好高兴哦！真得很谢谢你们的祝福！我会加油的，你们也要加油哦！

生日时会这么寂寞，是不是我的好朋友太少、生活圈子太小？还是自己长大了，心智却停留在还想在生日时，有朋友围绕在身旁？是幼稚？是傻瓜？想一想，当人们都长大后，都有自己需要忙的东西。渐渐的朋友的生日再也不是什么大件事了。不是不在乎，而是还有更重要的东西要忙。记得的话就发个简讯来祝福，不记得也就算了。反正生日年年过，也没什么大不了的。可能我的心态也因该改变了吧。

今晚要和dear一起去Phuture狂欢。希望狂欢的当儿，会把今天的闷气和不愉快都忘记掉。好啦，不写了。写得再多，今天的生日还是寂寞的。在写下去，写的人心更伤、读的人心更痛……

434. birthday dinner

Note of the day: Enjoyable weather. Enjoyable day.

A day where everyone is around for a nice dinner. The same happened roughly one year back. Somehow my birthday had became some sort of reunion dinner for everyone. But I'm happy about it of course. It's really hard to get everyone together for a decent meal.

Anyway, we went back to Changing Appetite for dinner. Mum's first trip but she's happy about the arrangement. Of course, astonished by the serving size of their burgers. I've decided to go for something else instead -- their famous CA steak. Well, meat wish is a lil over-cook but hard to control it as was being served on a hot plate. Mum ordered a "Cheese the Chicken". Nice filling with mangoes. Dear had a dish of pasta, "Spice it up". Not that spicy but not everyone can take the strong taste of pepper. Not a problem for dear of course as she's the "spice" gal! Woohoo! Brother had the GIGANTIC BARBARIAN burger! It's huge but never a problem for brother's diet! I'll got for it when I'm really hungry. As for Kelly (brother's gal), a pamersan fish and chips. Delicious! Can't imgaine cheese to go well with fried fish!

Besides food, we've ordered drinks this time round. Some drinks comes in regular and LARGE sizes. Warning: DO NOT attempt to try the LARGE size yourselves unless you are really thirsty!

Chocolate Banana cake from Prima Deli. Delicious and yet at low price. A cheaper alternative if you can't afford Secret Recipe. And it's really decently well done!

It's really an enjoyable night! How I hope it could be like this every year...

433. stray chicken

Quote of the day: 雨过天晴了！好高兴哦！

Remember the stray chickens at dear's area recently? Here's the video taken from dear's place at the balcony!

Enough of stray cats and dogs. We have now stray chickens!

So, anyone up for curry chicken? Haha... Featured in the video was only the white feathered. There are more of it's gang! So get your nets ready boys!

432. 晴天雨天

Rant of the day: 是我付出得不够，还是我付出得太多？

天气转变得很突然。一下晴天、一下雨天。人的心情和心境也一样，开心与不开心就在那一瞬间。是因为生理期吗？还是因为太累了？

我快乐是因为看到她快乐。我难过也是因为看到她难过。知道她心情不好就少说话，因为害怕说错了又惹火她。可是说话也错，不说话也错。牵的手仿佛没有生命，拥抱时也好像没什么心情。是面对我久了，就开始take me for granted吗？还是无意中，因为种种元素而口气不好？我是无所谓的，能忍就尽量忍。想要我做什么，只要我金钱、能力和接受范围内做得到，我都会尽量去做去满足。谁会每天都是晴天对吗？人人都会有雨天，只要不是天天都是雨天就行了。

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可是，刚才真得很想哭……

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天气转变得快，人的心情也一样。说变就变。

我能体谅她的雨天，可是她知道吗？？？

431. 在家里slack

Quote of the day: 怎么知道你老了？有4句名言--坐着打瞌睡。当着睡不着。往事忘不掉。眼前记不捞。

离职已有好几天了。若问我是否怕找不到工作，其实真得有那么一点点担心。可是，因为自己以决心的要参加93.3的DJ试音比赛，就没花那么多精力找工了。现在我仍然在想我当天该说些什么。好害怕到了台上，半句话都说不出来。如果真发生了，脸都丢光了！

最近很多人问我现在做什么。很简单的回答--在家slack。爽吗？哈哈。

可能是因为最近由游泳和天天在家举哑铃，肤色终于变得有一点黑了。至少看起来比较健康一点。手臂的肌肉也稍微比较紧了一点。之前的松弛肌肉也有一点点地稍微“硬”了一些。请不要有太多的幻想。只是身体稍微健康了一点，不要在我的身材有“色”想hor！哈哈！反正在家也没事做，就动一动也不错。再加上天气真得热死人不偿命，游泳反而是很好的运动选择。而且据dear的了解，又用所消耗的热量比跑步还多！要减肥吗？？？

今天的网络似乎又有问题。接上了又断线。真是气人……

430. early birthday celebration

Quote of the day: I love you dear! Muacks!

I'm so touched by dear's attempt to give me an early birthday surprise. She had bought me the chrome dumb bell and yet wish to give me another surprise.

We had lunch at Changing Appetite and I WILL go back again! Their servings are gigantic and at reasonable price! I'd ordered a 2 inch burger and to my surprise, it's about the size of my face! Oh my goodness!

This is the first time that I couldn't finish the fries on my plate! I'd no choice but to give it up. I'm really filled to my brim!

Dear spent the entire night, sacrificing her sleep to make me a birthday scrap book. I'm really so touched! You wouldn't know how happy is it to receive a self-made scrap book from your love one unless you received before too! Dear, I love you so much!

429. photos with ex-colleagues

Rant of the day: What's is the problem with blogger?

What is blogger's problem? I can't upload all my photos that I've taken with my ex-colleagues after my editting! After numerous struggles, here you go.

Viola! It's done. If you wanna get the individual photos, MSN me or sms me your email and I'll send to you.

428. last day

Rant of the day: Looks like it's gonna rain AGAIN! Darn. It's the monsoon season.

We skipped swimming yesterday. Looks like the weather ain't so good after all. It suddenly turned cloudy and down came the rain and thunder. What the?!? I've already got my bag packed and ready to go! What an anti-climax...

It's my last day at work today. My heart is pounding. Excited? Sad? Happy? Melancholy? I can tell you, it's everything that I'm feeling now. Elaine's sms came early this morning when I'm still on bed in my lala land. I really appreciate all the blessings gal! Thanks. Ridwan also sent his message when I saw him online just now. Will forever remember the NSA (New Staff Academy) days. How can I ever forget the curry puff days right?

Talking about curry puffs, I still need to collect the 40 curry puffs that dear had helped me to ordered from Old Chang Kee, which I'll be bringing over to office as a farewell snack for corporate. Alot? Not really when you take into consideration that most of them eat alot! Haha. Anyway, thanks dear for helping me placing my orders.

Dear had been really moody yesterday and I don't know what to do to make her smile. It really hurt when you see her sulk and whatever things you do does not help in the situation. Dear had been complaining how much weight she had gained and the wanting to lose them all. To me, gaining or losing weight will NEVER change the way I love you dear. I've been also gaining weight myself too. Sometimes we just have to learn to accept the way we are created. We might be having those super models body when we were much younger but as time goes by, our body condition changes together with age and lifestyle. But if you insist to lose weight, you have all my support ok. But must do it in a healthy way ok?

Need to prepare my stuff. Tata..

427. first pressie

Rant of the day: I'm on MC!

Tomorrow is my last day at work. So much of mixed feelings within me. Athiah was telling me that she'll so miss me when I'm no longer around in office. Winnie was also saying that now that I'm gone, she'll be so bored and lonely.

Anyway, I should be happy about leaving instead of feeling moody...

My first birthday pressie!

A bit early though but I don't mind plus it's from my darling dear! Although it didn't came as a surprise because I carried my own pressie home, but I'm really so touched. I don't really want her to carry. It's not good for gals to carry heavy stuff, so I rather carry it myself. Is a set of 10kg chrome dumb bell set from dear. It came with 2 plates of 1.5kg weights and 2 plates of 2.5kg weights. Do not attempt to carry all at one go if you are not ready. Don't break your arm!

It's something which I've wrote on my wishlist for so long but I'd never bought. Now, I can finally strike it off the list. I love you so much dear! Muacks!

I'm some sort of thinking what to prepare for the DJ audition. Had never been to one and don't know how it will be conducted also. All I know is that it will be held at Plaza Singapura but will it be outdoor stage or like Project Superstar where it's in an enclosed room? What's needed for me to show? Talk? Sing? Dance? Nah... Think it should be just talk la.

Anyway, swimming later with dear. The weather is so good to have a dip in water.

426. application

Rant of the day: It takes 45min to reach SIM from my home. So long...

I'm just home after submitting my application at SIM. Application cost $52.50. Gosh, luckily it's still before the stupid GST hike, if not it's gonna cost me more! Ouch.

I'm skipping lunch again. Well, actually not really skipping but just eating some other snacks and not the normal meals that we are referring to. Sipping my instant Campbell soup and chewing on some crackers. The time is just too odd for normal meals now, so why not snack a lil instead before dinner.

Something tells me that I should start to exercise like them! Haha. But it must be damn tiring to do such stunts on treadmills. Let's guess how many time they had NG?

I've decided to go for the audition for the DJ Search on 7th April. Now it's how to break the news to Yiu Fei that I'm not able to attend her wedding dinner on the same day itself. All I need now is support. Mental support instead of any dissuasion.

Oh well, be it whether do I get any support or not, I'm still going to try...

Meeting dear for dinner later. What shall we eat? Any cravings?

425. dj search

Rant of the day: I'm having slight sunburn. Ouch!

It's so close to my last physical day. Coming Friday, I'll be saying goodbye to everyone in office. Just hope that there will not be too much emotions involved. Too many peps to thank. Too many friends to miss. Too many memories to remember...

Oh well, life goes on after all.

Anyway, just heard from Y.E.S 93.3FM that there is going to be a DJ Search competition! Oh my goodness! I've gotta participate in this. I might have a chance ya know. Haha. Well, who knows I might be cut to be an excellent radio DJ right? But it had always been a dream to join them on radio. Hope that this dream can come true one day. But darn! The audition is on the same day as Yiu Fei's wedding in Malacca! Shucks! If I manage to pass through the auditions, I might have a new career path from there on! But Yiu Fei is one of my best friends in Cluster C. How? Anyway, for details on this competition, click here to read more. Dear, can help me print the application form first? Muacks!

So should I go for the audition or go for Yiu Fei's wedding? *sobz*

Not working tomorrow, so, I'm going to apply for SIM tomorrow. So far... Plus I'm going alone. Sianzzz...

424. 再见小雪

Quote of the day: It's always easier to criticize others then criticize yourself.

最近压力大吗？很想抒发情绪吗？不知道该如何抒发对吗？想哭？想笑？不必再找了！花一点点钱和时间去看以上的电影吧！《再见小雪》(Hearty Paws)，一部感人肺腑、触动民心的温馨电影。包你看了抱头大哭！！！

刚和dear看完这部片子。我们两个哭得不能见人啊！灯光一亮，马上拔腿就跑，逃离现场。Paiseh啦……哭到我的眼跟鼻都通红起来！

故事讲的是两个小主角与一只拉布拉多犬（labrador）所经历的过程。我们还是庆幸着都有妈妈在身旁。两位小主角，阿灿与小伊，小时就失去了父亲。妈妈就在小伊还年幼时，到了大城市区公干。把两位小孩放在亲戚家中照顾。放着放着，就渐渐“望”了孩子们的存在了。可能是低档不了城市中的诱惑与性爱。阿灿无奈的得一手包办，照顾妹妹的一切，充当着父母两角。在妹妹生日时，偷了一只拉布拉多宝宝（小雪）送给妹妹。日子一天一天过，小狗也长大了。就在一个寒冷的冬天，发生了一件改变阿灿与小雪一生的事……故事情节高潮迭起，就不在这儿多说了。还是让大家自己去看这部片子吧！罕见值得一看得好片！

在看得当儿，回想到很多以前在小时后发生的事。不知不觉，眼泪就悄悄的滑落下来。真得很感谢妈妈没有像片中主角的妈妈离开我跟弟弟，不离不弃的照顾我们。日子在艰难都熬过了。不……我的父亲健在，只是家家有本难念的经。我家的这本经在较早是比别人家的还难念罢了。难念的地方大多数都在我小时候念了。现在当然还在念，但未来种是未知数，可是无论如何都不比以前的难念。

可能因为自己的经历，看片子时就很容易体会到阿灿的苦于痛。大家看了这部片一定会哭，只是为什么哭就不一样了。多数是因为感动而落泪。但是要真正体会与感受到片中所要描述的那种感觉，除非你也曾经历过类似的过程，不然是不会真正因为阿灿的痛而痛、因为阿灿哭而哭。虽然我跟阿灿的过程不完全一样，但我真得能深深地感受到他内心深处的无助于无奈。所以哭得特别厉害。

不信我因为看戏而哭得很厉害？问我的dear就知道了……

423. mixture

Rant of the day: Some customers I just don't know if I should pity them because they are stupid or should I be angry when they "act" stupid.

This few days are crazy at work man. Calls just suddenly kept on popping in like as if there's no tomorrow! Worse part is that there is no particular trend on why on the sudden increase! Best part is lots of these calls are long and irritating calls. Service level suffered badly. We are answering the calls, trying the best to clear the queue but it just seems that it's not effective! Is it because of school holidays and they are damn free? Tell me how?

Yumi popped a question to me yesterday, if I'm reluctant to leave the company. Honestly, I can't wait for my last physical day at work. But I hate to leave all my friends. After going through so much together, it's actually pretty upset for me to leave. My batch mates, kopi buddy and crazy khakis. Still, leaving is the option to relief the stress from this call centre job.

It's just a mixture of feelings now. Happy or sad? I really don't know how to describe.

Yiu Fei's wedding is at April. Good thing is, she had finally found the man in her life. Bad thing is, her wedding is at Malacca! Alamak! So far... Worse part is I seldom travel, so I really don't know how to settle the travel arrangements. All I know is we'll be staying over at Eason's brother's place for a night. What about transportation? We shall see about that la. I still don't know where is my passport. It's somewhere out there in one of the cupboards la.

Just got a hair cut and it feels damn good. Weather is turning warm again. VERY warm in fact...

422. following up

Quiz of the day: Why does the carpenter laughed so loudly in a violin performance?

HR finally contacted me to arrange for exit interview and arrangement for my sim card. As the time draws closer, I feel lighter each day.

Control desk also confirmed my last physical day in office and it's earlier then I've expected. Nice... I will miss the peps there when I leave. Hopefully, they will miss me too. But I had a nightmare last night that just before I left, I'd received a hate mail which summarized who hated me in office and the reason. But luckily, it's only a nightmare and they usually turned out the opposite. So does that mean that I'm well-liked in office? Haha.

Need to follow up some of the cases today. Tired...