627. one year older

Rant of the day: It's a gorging day... I feel fat! But heck la. Die another day...

Thanks to all well wishers and of course to Lek Choon, you sms came right on at 12.04am. You guys rocks!

Yes, I'm a year older and it's just a love or hate affair. You love all the attention but hate the fact that your age keeps going up but never come down. On the contrary, your skin "comes down", and I mean they start to sag.

Never mind that. It's still an enjoyable day.

My first pressie and was sort of a surprise on Saturday afternoon. My brother actually left a bag on my bed. Love the "sperm" thing on the paper bag. Thanks brother and his girlfriend, Kelly.

And yes, he knows I'm a vainpot... But thank goodness he didn't buy the one that says "I'm horny" even if I'm really that. Haha...

Mum took a day off to accompany me to lunch at Pariss. Dear and Kelly joined in the lunch affair. Felt like it's some sort of family reunion.

Their oyster are huge! It's like the size of my palm. Fresh and tender. But hey, watch that cholestrol.

Dear bought me this Sovil Titus watch. Love it sooooooo much. Don't you think it matches the hot me? Haha...

Dinner was at Waraku. Gosh. Their serving is freaking large. For once I can't finish what's in their set meal.

And of course, a mark of my 25th year with a ceremonial blow of the candle. Thanks mum for the cake too! It's delicious.

Not forgetting my darling. Love you lots. Thank you for being by my side all this while and walk with me through my toughest days. Muacks!

626. my fault

Question of the day: 吃饱后不能做什么？

It happened so fast that I couldn't react on time. It's all my fault...

It's supposed to be a happy night ride home. As usual, boarding the bus from my place and head towards dear's home with dear. We love the upper deck whenever it's available. So, after tapping our cards, we waddled up the stairs slowly.

*thud*

Next moment, dear was tumbling down the steps. I didn't managed to catch hold of her on time and only managed to stop her from continuing rolling down after the third step. By that time, dear was already facing down and her legs were badly bruised. I grabbed her firmly on her arms and helped her steadied herself before we get a seat so that I can examine the injuries.

Her right thigh is badly bruised and swollen. Her right foot is swollen too. Her left shin had a small cut and started to bleed. Other then these, the rest of her legs had also visible but smaller bruises.

My heart ached as if the injuries were on me. As I saw dear started crying, my tears were also dangling on the edge of my eyes. How could I let this thing happen?!? If only I pay more attention when dear is climbing the stairs. If only I grab her on time. If only... I feel so guilty of not able to prevent the accident from happening.

Suggested to take dear to A&E for an examination but think due to the sudden trauma, dear refused and insist to go home first befire deciding what to do.

So I took half a day off today to bring her to the doctor. Seems like it's just bruises except for the swell on the right foot and toe. Need to monitor on that because the swell is really bad and dear can't really move her toe. Might be due to a hairline fracture but to be monitored till Wednesday. The rest of the bruises need some good rest with minimal movement. 3 days MC is all dear has to recover but I'm not around. Lesson on Tuesday and RT on Wednesday and lesson again on Thursday.

I'm worried... Very worried...

Dear, must take care when I'm not around. Don't move around to much. Don't take seafood, except fish. Don't take chicken. Don't take spicy food. Must clean the wound thoroughly. Must rest more. If in pain, take the painkiller.

I love you dear...

First time I cried when dear's injured. Have to make sure that it will be the last time... No more accidents...

625. long weekend

Thought of the day: Where does your belly button connects to? Why doesn't it move away no matter how skinny or how fat you are?

Long weekend! Yippeee... Kinda slept at around 3am last night to work on assignment and woke up at 1pm today! Somehow, it does seems to be enough. Think my body is running on a serious sleep debt.

Good Friday. It will be even better if it's not raining. But I'm still welcoming the short break off work. Still got my toopid IPPT RT on Sunday evening. How sickening...

These gals are good. Singapore twins at the age of 16 and now, almost a star.

Where shall I enjoy the day with my dear?

624. i need more time

Rant of the day: Tired...

Haven't got the time to update my blog. There's just so many things to do and so little time to spare. How I wish there's more than 24 hours... But prolly there's more work to do if you have more time to use.

I applaud to the decision of the new state minister of Penang of abolishing the NEP, where Malays get priority in many social areas like education, job, tenders and etc. But apparently this move made the Malaysian PM really "mad". His statement almost made my jaws dropped -- "marginalise the Malays". But didn't he realised that with the NEP in place, he is the "culprit" of marginalise the Chinese and Indians. It should be a society based on meritocracy instead of race.

I'm glad I'm born as a Singaporean... seriously glad...

On current module, it's getting even more tiring to work on and it doesn't help at all when you are working at the same time. Moreover, I'd personal commitments to attend to. But the team is generally working well. Everyone has a part to play but it's only the beginning. We'll see if hiccups sets in along the way. But can we do the discussion on afternoon if it's on a weekend? It's damn tiring to do it at night.

Slept at 1am last night just to start working on the masthead. After mingling 1 hour with InDesign CS3, I gave up. It's back to Photoshop CS3 instead. Shall continue with InDesign again.

As for today, it's SUNDAY! Gotta set aside for my dear. Shall continue on designing while waiting for her.

623. 公私分明

Rant of the day: 忙忙忙……

我是个公私分明的人。往往，我不会把私下不满的东西或情绪带到工事上。可是很明显的，不是每个人都和我有相同的观念。再说，大家都是人吗。不同的人把持着不同的观念。老实说，我也蛮随便的。如果别人喜欢把公和私都化为一体，我也就anything咯……只要我不被牵连，我是很ok的。

新的科目终于开始了。其实我真地对这个科目满感兴趣的，因为如果想进入媒体业，这杂志科目必须掌握好。但是显然的，剩下的同学似乎很不把这儿科放在眼里。正堂课都嘻嘻嚷嚷的，吵死人了啦！弄得我都无法专心听。说我不懊恼是假的。

大家只会品头论足，说讲师这样那样的。但是是否有看到自己的所作所为呢？不能否认的事，讲师的教说方式似乎很难引起兴趣。但是自己是否有常识去听课呢？怎么矛头都指向讲师而从未看到自己的不是？觉得满同情讲师的处境，定位和立场。

这次的组合专题作业需要的最少组员相当惊人，一组要有结余8至10人！还好的是我们的组合满快的。要当机立断的做好最快的打算。当然，这次的组合我还算蛮认同的。其实组员的个人实力都旗鼓相当。相信会有佳绩。

不多说了。好累哦……

622. 新歌亮相

Quote of the day: 你离开的那一霎那，我的心完全崩溃了……

他们算唱了很多个，而且多数也发过个人专辑。老实说，单独唱歌的F4没什么作为。全部的音质并不算特别，唱功也一般。当中，算朱孝天的唱歌实力最好。而当然最没看头的相当明显。Vanness还是唱rap会比较好些。不但咬字不清楚，而且无法hold住他的key。如果有听过他现场唱他个人专辑的歌时，似乎有严重的走音问题。

还是在一起唱比较好。这一首《在这里等你》算是他们出道以来，吸引到我注意的歌。当然，还是朱孝天的唱功比较好。但是，MV的镜头似乎不是很多。有一点欠缺公平。可是，他的形象是时候改变一下了。

谈这首歌吧。歌曲的旋律很前卫，又让人想在听第二遍的吸引力。节奏感很强也很朝气，但是咬字方面就有待进步。唱歌技巧就别谈了，真得没什么看头。音域方面还算是蛮广的。歌曲当中有好几个high point都抓到了，可是，还有待现场表现来断定。

MV拍摄手法很简单也很catchy，但是看久了就有一点“重复”的感觉。没有故事情节可谈。好像只是故意把F4亮相而已，一个接一个的display出来。不是站着，就是走路。只有F4的超级粉丝会爱上这支MV。

621. 有appointment的咧

Joy of the day: Dancing class tomorrow... I feel so alive!

看到妈妈疼痛难熬、喊天天不应，呼地地无门时，自己却又无能为力，心里是百万分的难过……

今天妈妈终于鼓起勇气，把那颗蛀的智慧齿拔掉。过程需要照X光和动个小手术。以妈妈的年龄来说，手术后大量流血的可能性蛮高的。为保妈妈的安全，我在亚利山大医院等了一个下午，要肯定妈妈没事，才和她一起回家。

麻醉药似乎失效的很快。不一会儿，妈妈就开始感到疼痛了。整个右脸都浮肿了起来。止痛药也起不了多大的作用。回到家后，妈妈痛到连话也说不出、水也喝不下。我都看在眼里但却什么也帮不上。唯一能做的就是抚摸妈妈的肩膀，和帮她准备冷开水以及买食物。我的心突然感到很无奈，眼泪都差一点掉了下来。

但是这种情况很快就会过去的。以我个人的“拔智慧齿”的经历，应该不会超过三天。妈妈要加油哦！

说个我今天在等候妈妈的时候看见的一件莫名其妙的事。

就在妈妈正在动手术时，我就在外开报纸。突然，其中一名年约60岁的伯伯站了起来，气呼呼的走向服务柜台，便大声地喊道：“为什么这么久？我有appointment的咧！我的appointment十二点。我十二点就到了。现在都一点了！一个钟头都还没叫我！为什么这么久？”服务柜台的职员马上帮他察了一下，就回答：“对不起uncle，在多几个就到你了。因为今天星期六，会比较多病人，所以等候时间比较久。”

那位伯伯很不悦的道：“那appointment来干嘛？我有appointment就要到我了。那里又要我等这样久？他妈的！”服务柜台的职员还仍然保持冷静的安抚，但是这位伯伯很显然的是头一次看牙医。完全不顾及身边还有其他病人和家属，嘴里一直在骂“他妈的”。真的莫名其妙……我看了其实有一点不爽。第一，他干扰了我看报纸的心情。第二，他干扰了别人。第三，他实在太没教养了。对服务人员时，嘴里开口闭口都是“他妈的”。

他因为等候时间远超过预约时间，是有理由生气的。但他完全没有权力干扰以及影响在场的工作人员和其他病人与家属。很想走过去跟他讲：
1）不想等的话，你现在可以回去了。不用看牙医了。因为你肯定没事。都可以这么大声骂人，可见你已完全康复。
2）有appointment很了不起吗？这里在等的病人，有哪儿一位没有appointment？做appointment又不需要钱，你又有什么特权呢？
3）这里又不是全私人的牙科中心。等候时间一定很久。不要等的话，就敢敢花多几百块，去私人牙科中心。但我就不相信那儿也不用等。

说真的，有谁看牙医不用等？除非是在你之前没有其他病人，不然，就算有预约也必须等。

很多人往往都会忘记自己的身份与所在地而过分的大声嚷嚷。这种以自我为中心（self centered）的人其实到处都是。看到的只有自己而完全不顾及身旁的人。只有自己是全场焦点。自我为中心并不是每一次都是坏事，因为你会觉得很有自信。但是过度利用这一种“权力”而故意使到他人不变或不悦，那就不对了。

有时把身份对换一下，将自己放在别人的处境时，就能看到自己的无理取闹和莫名其妙了。这样，世界可能会更美好。

620. love you better

Quote of the day: 满遭损 谦受益

This was the last song used by Choon Hui during hip hop class. Ciara's Love You Better.

Nice right? "Drop like this... Drop like this..." Anyone have this song?

Wondering what song will be used this Sunday... But will my body be ready? I'm still sick.

On MC again today. Feverish and my mucus is super thick. My voice has changed a lil and sounds a lil muffled. Sianz...

619. 发烧鼻塞

Rant of the day: 天天都好像不够睡……

有一点发烧的感觉。身体软绵绵的。鼻塞一直干扰我的呼吸。真的很恼人！可是又不想一而再，再而三的请病假。很不舒服啊！

东西方一边，今天拿了两个钟头的time off，是为了面试的安排。机会似乎很渺茫。看来我要加入传媒界仍然是个未知数。难道真要等到我毕业后才能加入传媒界？未来的路似乎很模糊……

今天是我和dear的两周年纪念日。我爱你dear！虽然今天没和你在一起，但心中想的都是你……

618. missing or wanted?

Beatbox lesson: Let's say the following from slow to fast - 捕刺客 打刺客 刺客不打刺客 (bu ci ke - da ci ke - ci ke bu da ci ke)

Seriously, there is something wrong with the Mas Selamat posters. It says "Missing" but shouldn't it be "Wanted"? When a person is missing, you wanna find him. But when a person is wanted, you wanna catch him!

There seems to have so many mysteries on the escape of the JI headman, Mas Selamat.
1) How did he managed to escape from the detention centre without passing through the securities?
2) Why did no one follows him to toilet when he requested for it?
3) How did a limping man escaped so fast without detection?
4) How can he still survive for so long if no one is hiding him?
5) Is there some supporters or reinforcement of his within the force?
6) Is there some supporters or reinforcement of his outside?

It's just some burning questions that still puzzles me and not properly answered by the force.

But honestly, he looks like some ordinary "uncles" walking on the street! Personally, I might not be able to recognise him even if he passes me or unless I take a serious observation at him. And if he wears a baju and tudong, I seriously will not be able to tell if it's him even if he limps!

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617. 2nd year anniversary

Quote of the day: 如果彼此就站在对方的身边却感觉不到对方，这才是最远的距离……

We decided to have an early celebration for our 2nd year anniversary. Spent practically the entire half of the day together. I was at work this morning actually. Unpaid OT but time off should be given, which proves to be useful because I have an upcoming interview on Wednesday! Nice...

We look sexy today. Dear in her super short dress that will send all guys nose bleeding. Any breeze comes and she will have to do the Marilyn Monroe thing. Wooo... I'm also in my super sexy vest, a pressie from dear actually.

Can't believe I did this. $150 for a ticket to my first concert, and she's not exactly an idol of mine. But I do like some of her songs. She's quite a vocalist as a matter of fact. Mum almost fainted when she heard the amount I paid. It did burnt a BIG hole in my wallet now. Should have gone for the cheaper seats. Haiz...

It's romantic dinner at Giraffe, the restaurant opposite Istana. Used to call B.Boss but there was some change in management and menu and since then, renamed to Giraffe. It's pretty expensive but for the ambience, it's worth it (only for once in a while pleasure). The cooling outdoor breeze. The comfortable sofa. The fantastic food.

The place is practically surrounded by trees and sort of felt like staying in a forest surrounded by another concrete forest. Haven't felt such relaxation in town for very long.

Anyway, hope dear like the pressie I bought. I love you dear!