784. on 31 december 2008...

Love of the day: I love working half day! Yippeee...

Ok, I'm gonna use mum's mobile line to upgrade to a better phone. Omnia, here I come!!! With trade in here and there, the 8GB version shouldn't cost more than $190. Not bad eh... Goodbye Sony Ericsson! Hello Samsung!

Anyway, prolly my last post for 2008. Just some reflection on myself for 2008. Not exactly the best year to talk about...

2008 is the year where I no longer felt "attached" to my job. It is now only a job to sustain my school fees. When you pull a rubberband too much, it snaps. Same applies for human. Either the person snaps mentally or the interest on the job snaps. Either case, it's a lose-lose situation for the office. Because, productivity level drops. This results in lower quality. So, don't complain why your staff "sucks" in their job.

2008 is the year when I finally got the chance to know how the radio broadcasting works. Yeah, it came with a price. But now, I have a better picture of what to expect if I'm ever going to be a radio DJ. Nah... that's not gonna come true lar. Just a dream.

2008 is the year when I first stepped into a real recording studio. Not exactly just to record my own songs but rather, a collaborated DnD album though. But it's damn exciting! Unfortunately, no solo parts. So sad... But still, it's an experience.

2008 is the year when I conclude the results for my first year with RMIT. Not bad though. Straight distinction. Hopes of flying to Australia to graduate grew stronger. Now it's a chance to prove that Eric can indeed achieve something academically. He is not a stupid boy! Booooo to those who use to think Eric is a totally dumb ass during primary, secondary and poly years. you see, Eric can do it!

2008 is the year when I got my first credit for the final year RMIT studies. So demoralised. Contradicts the above para. Now, hopes about flying to Australia diminished. So sad... This means I have to work double or even triple harder then now! Looks like more sleeping time have to be sacrifice.

2008 is the year when I got my first credit card. Yeah! So exciting! But watch the spending ya. Must always echo this in my head "Don't over spend... Don't over spend..."

2008 is the year when there is a new family member at home -- Deric, my Japanese Spitz. He is totally adorable. Seldom barks and always do the cute grunts. Always waiting for us to feed him snacks. And yes, always poo poo around his "toilet" tray but rarely on the tray accurately! Maybe he is also short-sighted.

2008 is the year when I'm really pissed off with people in office... yes, that twinkle twinkle starfish! And today, she also have to ask me something that my jaws almost dropped. Didn't she passed her income tax course? Why still ask me those DUMB tax questions which can be self answered if she look at the damn form properly?

2008 is the year when I make new friends in work and school! New faces. New people. You peeps had been great company. Tianyu... Jocelyn... Sarah... Joanne... Ching Ping... Stanley... Huey Weng... Fang Ying... all the temp staff... Siew Hoon... You peeps rocks!

2008 is the year when I got really upset with people in class. No names mentioned but it hurts and saddens me. All the trust are lost. What I used to believe, now, I no longer believe.

2008 is the year when I no longer trust Sony Ericsson's product. Think their mobile phone sucks to the core. Their older model were so good but why they cannot continue the legacy? The mobiles are getting from bad to worse!

And how can I forget about dear?

Today, is officially the 3rd year I known dear. We first met each other at MoS on 31 December 2005 for that year's countdown. The accidental hooking of arms together hooked us together till now. I love you baby! Muacks! Shall we hook on for many many more years to come?

Anyway, some stuff that I really wanna do in 2009. Not really a resolution but a hope that I have the time or money or courage to do it...
1) Record my radio DJ demo and send it to Mediacorp
2) Start a Mandrin online novel
3) Exercise more often
4) Take up long term hip hop class
5) Learn singing
6) Complete a marathon
7) Go for a long holiday

That's about all I guess...

Ok, time to start preparing for countdown tonight. Zirca or Rebel or Zouk?

783. i'm demanding

Rant of the day: 2009 is coming... But how come I no mood to celebrate?

I think I might be a really demanding customer. No... I AM A DEMANDING CUSTOMER! But I'm not afraid to declare that. I will stand for what is right for myself since I am a paying customer and should be given the appropriate services.

Whatever the case is, the modem is a goner. Need to buy a new one. And Singtel is offering the "brand new" Mio modem at a hefty $140 if I subscribe the Mio TV for 6 months. As if anyone will watch it at home. And there is a minimum spending per month required. At least chargeable for $16 per month. But I managed to squeeze it off the helpline staff to provide a full waiver for the requirements on minimum charges if I take it up.

Need to discuss this further with lil brother 'cause it ain't cheap. Plus, the old modem is working perfectly now and the speed don't affect me much... yet...

Next stop, Sony Ericsson... Prolly goiong down on Friday. The idiotic phone restarting problem came back again! Even changing the motherboard doesn't help! Fuck it man! Again I repeat, I AM A DEMANDING CUSTOMER! Beware!

Anyway, just fnd this song really catchy. New JJ song, 不潮不用花錢. My body moves with the beat everytime I listen to it.

Don't you think it resembles one of the PCD song and one of the Neyo song? I'm not too sure though.

782. fucking pissed

Quote of the day: You 很“油”and 很 eewwww……

I am FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING pissed off with Singtel.

My Internet connection has a problem and it disconnected suddenly on Sunday night. Knowing the bills are on GIRO and therefore shouldn't be an embarrasing case of line cut. So, I suspect that it might be due to an outage in the service.

But how to check? Call helpline. Best... 1610 operates in office hour. Guess what the IVRS telephone annoucement says?

"You may wish to refer to our website for more assistance."

Eh, the person who set this message obviously didn't use brain lar. My Internet down, check what from your website? I can't even connect for goodness sake! What an ass!

Then, I dialled their Singtel mobile helpline and asked if there was any news on Internet service outage. No news. So, I requested for their staff to call me the very next morning. And yes, this helpline staff TOTALLY pissed me off!

"Sir, we are different department. Could you call them tomorrow?"

Oei, common lar, I don't fucking care which department I'm calling. All I know is I'm calling Singtel for help and you better convey my message and get someone from the correct department to call me back lar. To me, you are one legal entity and as long as I don't call M1 to ask for help on my Singnet broadband, I am correct ok...

So, finally received a call from their broadband sale staff this afternoon during lunch. But unfortunately, she cannot do much since she is not the subject expert. Nevermind. I am an understanding person. So, I requested their correct person to call me back after 8pm today when I am home. Their technical support staff worked till 12 midnight ok.

And I waited... and waited... and waited... Sent my girl home and back at home at 12 midnight. Nope, no call at all. Thought my mobile might be cranky so I done some test calls and it is perfectly fine.

Great...

Now, I am really going to explode. Hey common, I wasted my whole evening, sit around and wait for assistance but none called. Tried to use the reset function on the modem but it didn't work. And guess what, I connect to the Internet now using my old modem... Right...

FINALLY~~~ Think the speed is compromised but definitely fast enough to send a decent complain email. So, will be waiting for their call tomorrow and I bet the things that is going to come out from my mouth ain't gonna be nice.

I'm Yes No Man when I'm pissed...

781. nice body

Rant of the day: Mentally abused...

Saw this on Joey's blog. Damn funny! Totally NOT sexy at all! Haha... Enjoy.

The bad thing about blog is that I cannot write anything I feel now. 'Cause I know whatever I wrote here, things happen. People react to my emotions. And I thought I finally found a place to express my feelings freely and people can understand me better... but I thought wrongly...

So, I'm almost back to an emotional fridge again. Hans gave me this nickname -- emotional fridge. And I kinda felt it indeed an apt description. Storing emotions within. I can't say what I feel and what I'm thinking and now I can't blog it too.

*sigh*

Anyway, mum will be home tomorrow! Yeah! Wondering what fantastic photos she took at Yun Nan. I haven't been to China and I felt that I should go once to appreciate the beauty of nature. And yes, I wanna climb the Great Wall of China! I wanna see Tiananmen and also, Shanghai!

And I still think that I should find a chance to go Macau. I don't gamble lar. But heard that they have very interesting nightlife! But I wanna go Spain too! Wait, still got Japan... Korea... Australia... New Zealand... Hong Kong... Taiwan... London...

Reality check -- no money... So sad...

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Everytime dear and I pass by the lingerie shop, she never fails to exclaim how she wish to have a body like those almost naked models. It never fails to amuse me with such remarks -- "If only I have that kind of body..."! Seriously, do all girls think the same way?

Lemme tell you what most guys think, or at least what I think. To me, it is merely nice to have a girlfriend with such yummilicious contours. But, it is not necessary. I can live with someone who does not have a nice body too. Anyway, I don't have it either.

Having such body line, only makes a guy feel totally insecure, unless he also have a fantastic lean and mean body. Because, every other men on the street will be ogling at the girl's ass and hoping that he can lay his hands on them! No way that I wanna let my girl to be the sex fantasies for other men. Also, you will never know if a pumped up body, cute looks and loaded with cash guy will appear and hook your own girl away!

Isn't this the same for the girls? You will feel insecure if you man is way too good looking than the normal men on the street right?

All I want in my girlfriend is to love me. Don't need to be exceptionally curvaceous or alluring but don't look too "sorry" or too "erm... ya..." lar. Just someone to love me, take care of me, support me and respect me. Not too sure for other guys though...

PS: My wife MUST know who to cook a proper meal for the family. Hahaha...

780. working hard

Rant of the day: I need a new haircut!

I just can't stop playing The Phantom of the Opera the moment my laptop is on... I love Sarah Brightman's vocals!!!

Love me -
that's all I ask
of you...

The romance of Raoul and Christine is so sweet. The love... The passion... The protection... The love so deep that I cannot resist to read the lines again and again.

The Phantom's love for Christine is totally madness... So mad... So pain... So bad that I can literally feel the ache in my heart.

Will dear and I bloom and be as sweet as Raoul and Christine? Or as pain as Phantom and Christine? I work really hard and hope the latter never comes. But I believe it is not a one man's job to keep the relationship going and both dear and I are working hard on it.

Anyway, am so broke today. Paid my school fees and... ouch... I can feel a hole in my wallet. But still, I have to grab the shirt from Zara!

So nice! Love the contrast of the black, grey and white checkers. The cut is so nice that it fits perfectly into the curves. And the quality ain't bad. So comfortable and relax. But not exactly cheap lar and it's dull in colour. Cannot wear for CNY. Still have to get some other top.

More excuses for shopping?

779. christmas

Annoucement: Zara sale now on! Chiong ah...

To all my friends who had sent me SMS greetings, thank you and I wish you a Merry Christmas too. Hope you enjoyed today.

Morning on the eve was horrendous. First, it was raining so heavily that it soaked my jeans ends wet. Then, perhaps due to the rain, the train was moving really slowly. So, the usual crowded Ang Mo Kio station was doubly crowded! Was so bad that I had to miss 1 train and even when I finally boarded, I was so badly squeezed. To end it, when we reached Toa Payoh station, a fat man was pushing everyone backwards so that he can squeeze his fat tummy in. Eh hello, no space means no space lar. If you are too fat to come in, try again the next train can?

But it was a sweet surprise in office.

The moment I stepped into my cubicle, my desk was filled with goodies! Thank you peeps for all those pressies. The present I got from the gift exchange was not in the photo as was rushing home. The bread stress ball from Joanne damn cute lar. Also, Fang Ying's gift exchange present is definitely useful -- a 2009 planner! Wah, how she knows that I uses planner every year ah?

But the best present is from dear. I had always wanted to own the original CD to The Phantom of the Opera! And dear got it from me just now. I love it love it love it so much!!! The moment switched on my PC, I had to slot in the CD and play it. The vocals are damn power lar! Love you so much dear. Muacks!

No party for this year's Christmas... Working on Friday and can't effort to go office restless with all the hangover.

778. crappy invoice

Rant of the day: No mood for Christmas...

I can't imagine why my institution is so "funny". The school fees invoice states deadline for payment is end of the month and I only received the invoice LAST NIGHT! And the best thing is, from today till the stipulated deadline, they are closed for a few days in view of the festive season.

What the fuck?

So minus off the Sundays and the half days on the Saturdays, I'm not left with much choice and to rush to school for payment after work either on this Friday or Saturday or next Monday or next Tuesday (which is the deadline). Crap...

777. worst christmas gift

Rant of the day: I'm so sad...

I just received the worst Christmas gift this year -- a credit for the kam lan module. It's my first credit lor! Fuck lar! Worse part is, I missed distinction by 2 marks! Damn dui lor!

All my hopes and dreams to fly to Australia to graduate is almost a goner, unless i get the remaining 7 modules all at least a distinction. How can it be possible? Even if I work my brain juice dried, it will still not gonna happen.

So sad... So disappointed...

And guess what, to add on to the excruciating pain, I received the invoice to pay school fees. Right... Perfect timing lar.

No mood for Christmas le.

*sigh*

776. twilight

Rant of the day: I hate Mondays...

For those who has not catch this movie, please do watch it before it's over. It's damn nice. Even the books are sold out.

And Robert Pattinson (Edward Cullen) is not exactly handsome lar. That bushy eyebrows is so comical. But he is indeed charming. The role suits him really well. So cold yet so cool. But I like Ashley Greene (Alice Cullen) better, playing the role of Edward's short hair sister. She's damn chio lor!!!

Anyway, mum is in China now. So good... Go holiday... Haha. When will I have time and money for holiday?

775. 辛酸世界

Rant of the day: 终于可以好好的睡觉了！

Project终于告一段落了。牺牲了一个礼拜的睡眠赶出来的货色，似乎有一点逊。但是为了长假，大家都一起努力。大家的辛苦会是值得的。

回家的路上就和Sharon聊了聊。话题一直离不开project。越谈就觉得越辛酸。老实说，跟我一起做project，压力会很大。因为，我对成品的素质要求蛮高的。也就是这样，环绕着我的闲言闲语相当多。可能大家都以为在背后说我我都不知道。其实，我都知道。不用等人“通风报信”，因为这种东西是能察觉的。对我来说，我会装作不知道。这样避免尴尬也万一未来发生事端，让彼此好下台。

奇怪的是，如果知道跟我做project会这么辛苦，当初又为什么一直要跟我一起做project？要跟我一起做project却又在我背后说我的闲话。我觉得这种人是十全的jerk！要选我做leader却一次又一次的中伤我。是因为project成品的素质高，才一次又一次的“忍辱负重”跟我一起做吗？

这样讲起来，似乎觉得我很被局势占了便宜。很有被利用的感觉。I'm taken advantaged by situations。几可怜……

我为什么对成品要求这么高？不是因为我吃饱没事做，想怎天到处去boss别人。而是为了整组的分数。为了能向妈妈交待。为了朋友能考取优异的成绩。为了大家拿到成绩后，脸上是微笑的。为了大局。不单单只是为了自己，也是为了大家。可是换来的却是大家的不满。

想了想，做了这么多，我到底是想prove些什么？证明我自己的能了？证明我是能考好成绩？还是证明我是有领导能力带领大家过关斩将？我自己也不是很清楚。可能以上皆是吧。

对这一切都感到很累……很累……也很无奈……

跟Sharon聊着聊着，眼泪也按耐不住的滑落。心中的委屈也就只有自己知道。

现在真的很希望接下来的project都是个人的。个人的project就不会发生这样的事。因为，一切就只靠自己。一切只为自己交待。成绩不理想也怨不了别人。只能怪自己当初为何不用功。

下一个group project，我不想做leader了。很累了……

774. no time

Rant of the day: Pre-Monday blues... So sad...

Gosh... Haven't got the time to sit down and do a proper post. Been so busy with work and study. Barely got the time to sleep actually. Office... Work... Home... Project... Read... Where's my life man? I'm so stressed that pimples are popping out everywhere on my face!!! Fark!!!

Seriously, this is not the kinda life that I wanna have but for my future, I have to do it no matter what. Things will get better... I hope...

Christmas is just around the corner but I don't feel the holiday mood. All I need for this holiday is some quality time to rest and enjoy! And I'm also looking forward to the Christmas dinner this Friday before mum flies off to China for a holiday. Turkey... Ribs... Ham... Mmmmmmmm... =P

But still, I prefer having a LONG break from work... Can't wait for next year so that I can clear my annual leave at year end! Woohoo!

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I've been having crabs for 2 days in a row! What's even better is having it with people who are important in my life. Plus, having it by the sea while breezes kisses my face. How nice... I know about the calories and cholestrol but just lemme enjoy life for a while. Food helps in destressing. Really...

Not exactly as expensive as I thought but definitely not something I can have it everyday. Just that it's bonus month, so more cash to splurge on food that I seldom eat.

Ok... Ate enough and yes, I feel fat enough too. So, back to work tomorrow but I'm seriously NOT looking forward to it.

All I want for this Christmas is less workload... I'm overloaded with work... *sigh*

773. changes

Question of the day: Is it me who always make discussion heated? *sigh*

Time is such a scary thing. People changes as time passes. From lazy to hardworking. From hardworking to lazy. From nice to mean. From someone whom you known quite well to someone you barely understand.

I usually take it as a learning experience. Observe how people changes from time to time. Their attitude. Their thinking. Their enthusiasm. I still think I had studied the wrong degree lar. I should take up sociology or psychology instead lar.

But I do enjoy very much on what I'm studying though. At least it's sort of fulfilling my original dream -- studying mass communication. It's easy to dream every night but it's difficult to fight for your dream. "Fight" as in not literally throwing punches but fighting to achieve your dreams. I'm sure my dear friend Hans will feel what I'm saying here but he's not reading lar.

I'm thinking if I should also pursue another psychology degree if money and time permits... Maybe not. Need to save up for future. My future don't end after getting this degree ya.

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Christmas is coming soon. Got your presents ready?

Was talking to Sharon and Ben on the bus ride home just now. Please don't buy me Christmas present unless you had pre-informed me that you wanna gift exchange. Else, I will scurry frantically to look for presents to give back. Please ah, save me the embarrassment and hassle. At least inform me early so that I can get you a present in exchange ok. Thanks hor!

772. today

Rant of the day: Sian... Tuesday blues...

I've recently re-installed Audition SEA and Maple SEA back into my laptop. Yes, Maple SEA do runs on Vista now but the installation is damn tedious.

The power of alter ego is huge. We all can't control ourselves to create a "new" self in the virtual world. A place where you can't see me and I can't touch you. You have powers which is not gonna happen in reality. You can dance so well but in reality, you are so clumsy until you can barely coordinate your hands and legs.

Powers of imagination runs wild. Which is why online gaming thrives even though the economy is disastrous.

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It's been raining for almost the whole day and for once, I finally felt it's DECEMBER! So cold... Brrrrrrrrr... Dear and I already had plans to swim and tan but thanks to the morning rain, we don't have a choice but to cancel it. Worse thing is the rain just kept on going and going! We were practically stuck at home.

But mum wanna go shopping at Takashimaya. Well, why not? So when the rain got really manageable, mum, dear and I decided to make a quick move. Dinner at Soup Spoon was great. Think mum haven't enjoyed her soup for a really long time.

Since mum got her $140 Takashimaya cash voucher, shopping wasn't as tedious. Got an electric BBQ board, brother's Renoma underwear and my CK underwear. Yes, I'm a big sucker for CK underwear now. They are so comfortable that I can't resist buying more. And it's on sale now!

*grab*

Can't get a comforter though. Those at Takashimaya were astonishingly expensive! I'm sure we can get better deals else where. Perhaps it's time we make a trip to Robinsons or John Little.

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Christmas is a time for shopping and I seriously think the recession issue isn't so big after all. Look at the number of people queueing in front of Crystal Jade Restaurant! Look at the number of people in Takashimaya, Zara, Coach, Gucci, LV...

I agree that because of the recession, people are now more careful of what they put in their shopping bag but even if the branded boutiques are on sale, the remaining 30% is still way to expensive. At least for me lar. I can't afford the 30% even if LV is ever going to be on sale.

Seriously, where's the recession?

771. bolt

Rant of the day: Money no enough...

I've spent so much these 2 days but it's not for me. Hope dear will feel better with all the shopping. That sort of settled her CNY clothes where I've yet to start thinking about mine. I've got my shoes and jeans. So, probably need to get a few tops will do.

Watched Bolt last night with dear! It's damn nice. Must watch! About this dog, Bolt, that was brought up to make it feel as if it is a super dog. But the poor dog doesn't know, thinking that it has super powers. And one fine day, it got lost outside the set.

(Image from http://disney.go.com/disneypictures/bolt/)

Bolt is sooooooo cute and sort of resembles Deric. That pointy ears, white fur, black nose and small paws. But too bad, the tail not the same. I'm sure the animators used Japanese Spitz or something similar to draw Bolt.

Look so much like Deric right? Awwwwww... So sweet... Anyway, Deric is so big now that carrying him is a chore.

Next movie to watch -- Twilight! I'm sure dear will enjoy it too! Muacks!

770. understanding

Rant of the day: The long weekend don't seems long enough.

Sometimes, I don't think I make a good boyfriend...

Sometimes, I don't think I'm really ready to get into a relationship...

Sometimes, I don't think I can what my better half want...

Sometimes, I don't think I don't think I should get attached...

When I get attached, I wanna share my joy with the person that I'm holding onto. I wanna love her with all my heart and soul. I wanna bring her happiness. I wanna show her the future that we can build together. A family... House... Car... Cards... Children... Stable income... It is sort of the Singaporean dream. But is it really a dream?

"You don't understand women!" -- A sentence that every man in this world will hear. And seriously, only women will whine and pass such irresponsible comment. Since when did guys complain to their woman that they don't even fucking understand their own man in the first place?

And even if the guy did mentioned, they say "You always kept quiet! How to understand you?". Contradicting sentences but seriously, whatever...

To me, this kinda comment has a certain level of despise. If said in a wrong tone or follow with a wrong statement, it actually implies "You are fucking stupid!". So what's the purpose of going out with a stupid guy? Go out and find a better guy who "understands" women lar. We shall see if the level of "understanding" maintains the same after screwing you upside down on the bed without true love in place.

I'm hurt to a certain extend when such statement is used on me.

You see, there is a difference between a guy who you have not been going out with but seems to "understand" you and a guy whom you had been seeing for a while but is not "understanding" you better as compared to the former.

What is a real "understanding"? The first guy obviously don't understand you but because both the guy and the gal has so much to explore about one another, they seems to "understand" what each other wants. This is the fake veil that appears in between both because you are both in the state infatuation. And we all know, mere infatuated relationship will not last.

So, wondered why the second guy don't seems to understand you? Because you had already explored enough and seen the good, bad and ugly of the other half. If it is true love, you will still be together and try to work out the difference. That is the REAL understanding!

Think again before telling your better half that they don't understand you. Don't fall into a trap where both of you understand one another so well that now, he/she don't seems to understand you. Because, tendency is that you will fall back and wish for the infatuation state to relive (probably with a different person) and that is dangerous.

769. confessions

Rant of the day: Tired lar... Long weekend when sia...

I have a confession to make -- I fell asleep in office every morning this whole week.

I'm supposed to start work at 8am but I'm really so blardy tired that the moment I sat down, my eyes start to close. The next moment, I'll grab my jacket and nuggles into them before dozing off. But I'll wake up be 8.20am lar. Can't afford to let my boss sees me sleeping right? She start work at 8.30am. Haha... So, just in time lar.

This goes to show how damaging "late night clubbing" + "straining next-day event" is. Which also explains why I'm so blardy tired...

So, I'm so looking forward to this coming long weekend. It's resting time! But it will be project pia-ing time also. Need to send in the stuff before Christmas. Guessed it's the lecturers "best" Christmas present. Time for them to pia everything on time so that they can enjoy their Christmas and New Year. Ya lar... ang mohs event...

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I've got another confession to make -- I'm praying real hard the guai lan group gets to present LAST on Saturday.

Last Saturday's presentation was not exactly the most enjoyable one but I had probably made it a lil more enjoyable that people were actually laughing during my presentation. Haha... The atmosphere wasn't in the right settings.

Every team was given only 7 minutes to present and the next 7 minutes will be the time for the class and lecturer to ask questions. This will be the best time for the classmates to help the presenting team to fill up the whatever gaps so that the project will be better. Howver, there was this extremely annoying team who consistently rushed to ask questions. Might sounded "helping" but if you think a lil further, they are actually trying to put you down.

What the fark!

But I think I had made the blardy Chinese-but-cannot-speak-Chinese guy sia suay by throwing back his own questions...

Him: "I felt your presentation very loaded."
Me: "Loaded?"
Him: "Yeah. Loaded. Very emotionally loaded."
Me: "So is that a question?"
Him: "Well... I don't know... And maybe..."
Me: "So what do you suggest?"
Him: "Well... I'm not so sure but..."
* lecturer interrupts *

Stupid right? He seriously don't know how many such presentation situations I had already been through lar. Try harder lar...

Too bad. Can't really explain how badly screwed up were their presentation. So nice to see the class working together to SHOOT them down!

Ever since the class embarks the final year with those who had relevant diplomas and came in with 1.5 years advance, the presentations were never peacefully conducted. I seriously don't understand what most of the new addition people are trying to prove?

We all have equal chances and strengths. With your previous qualifications, it doesn't really make you better than any others. Since we are in the same class now, it only means we all are on equal footing.