1066. 强颜欢笑

Rant of the day: Going through emotion breakdown...

离奇转折下，我以为今天拆石膏后，就能渐渐恢复往日的作息。谁知道，医生看了我的X光片后，竟然发现我的骨边有裂缝。为了以防万一，我换了一幅新的石膏，又继续呆在家里不能出门。这次，是整整一个月！！！倒霉……真的倒霉……

看我崭新蓝色的石膏！！！Tada~~~

表面上我看起来是似乎没有什么情绪，但内心一直在挣扎着。我不要再继续给大家添麻烦了，尤其是我妈妈。在过去的10天，她无微不至的照顾我任何小细节。早餐、午餐、晚餐。我内心是感激的。除了谢谢，还是谢谢。不过，接下来是30天的折磨。妈妈又必须继续的绞尽脑汁，为我的起居饮食烦恼。我真的是……无言以对。很对不起她老人家。自己的意外而让她忙上忙下。内疚……

弟弟也是因为我这次意外，忙东忙西。请紧急假期。拿紧急time off。提东提西。载上载下。多多少少也占据了他私人的时间。我又是一笔的内疚……

办公室里因为即将来临的宣传而忙得晕头转向。再加上同时因为考试请假，而我又缺席。人力上的压力可想而知。同事也因为如此，取消的部分的假期。我真的很惭愧但又束手无策。表面上，同事也没有很在意。只是希望我能快点好起来。但是，害到他们的行程或安排受到影响，我是万分的内疚……

再来，因为这次的伤而严重影响了我的行动。接下来的30天又是困在家里。又是无法陪dear出门还是什么的。很多的事情无法陪她完成。许多的安排、许多的策划。我多不能陪在她身边。相信dear也是身心疲惫。内疚……

当然还有Kevin。原本计划好的25公里长跑，也因为我这次的意外而有泡汤。更惨的是，钱也付了。不知道能不能找人代替。内疚……

为了隐藏我内心的愧疚与内疚，也不希望别人伤心难过，我认真地保持开心的笑容。我强颜欢笑，不让任何人为我担心。我尽量靠自己解决自己的问题。例如拿东西、吃药、上厕所、拿拐杖、开风扇、开电视等等。在很多时候，我尽量独立。感到极度疼痛时，也不发出任何哀嚎。

我做这一切是为了什么？为了些什么？为了不就是不让关心我的人担心……

因为这次的伤，我已经身心疲惫。我真的不能再接二连三承受更多的精神压力了。我的精神已经很累了。

1065. i cannot scratch

Rant of the day: My foot is sweating inside the cast and bandages... Eeewwwww...

Ok... Tomorrow is the cast removal day. I'm seriously not sure if I am even 50% healed. The pain was terrible this morning and only to subside after medication. Then again, it only means that the injury is still in a bad condition. But I'll be glad if the cast can be removed asap. It's warm inside and if I feel itchy, I CANNOT SCRATCH!!! And it's extremely uncomfortable wearing it. My movement is literally restricted. I have to depend on my crutches to go to the toilet...

*sigh*

I'm so hoping to quickly remove it. And of course, to stand up and walk on my own without the crutches...

Some things to complete after getting the cast remove after tomorrow. Need to attend a fashion show with dear on Saturday (so I'm hoping I can walk properly and not limp too much). So, what to wear huh? Troubled... Also, need to collect my Kenneth Cole Timepiece from Safra. Almost forgot about it until I glanced on the collection slip that's lying on my desk.

1064. ain't quite comfortable

Rant of the day: I'm still in pain... Owwwww...

Going through the longest MC in my life so far and things ain't quite comfortable actually. Besides the fact that I get to sleep more and wake up at 9 plus in the morning for breakfast and medication, the ankle still hurts like hell!!! The worse pain is always in the morning when I'm getting off the bed. The pain can be so bad that my face will turn pale.

But the swelling had subsided quite a lot. Can feel it... LITERALLY... The cast and bandages are coming loose. So had to stick them back with my own collection of micropore (those white cloth tape that the clinics or hospitals use to stick the bandages up) that I had been keeping since I'm quite an accident-prone person.

Going toilet just to pee is hell enough. Needless to say going for a bath...

I'm practically stuck at home EVERYDAY because going outdoor is tedious. I can't make up the short flight of stairs without sweating or panting.

But I can't stay in front of my laptop for too long as well! The ankle will be numbed... So I finished reading all my unfinish magazines. Still got 2 more books to complete.

I'm so looking forward to remove my cast on Friday... Please lemme recover... Please please please... I'm still pretty hopeful to complete the 25km run in May...

1063. universal studio singapore

Rant of the day: Ankle still swollen... Ultimate sianzation...

The trip to Universal Studio Singapore on Saturday was a blast!!! It was hell lotsa fun even though I was wheelchair-bound!!! IRAS Family Day 2010 held on Saturday at the venue was a well organised one. Heard the boss said during the speech that we are the first organisation to do it there.

During the visit, saw alot of my colleagues and almost everyone were concerned about my injury. DON'T WORRY PEEPS!!! I'm well and good. Just that my movement is really restricted and of course, the morning pain...

Do heard comments that why am I still going to the family day with my current condition... Oh come on peeps, I'd paid for the tickets. Moreover, I had a wheelchair. I don't need to walk around with my crutches. I'm well bandaged up and not exactly feeling too much pain. It's such a rare chance to be here so die die must come!!!

The most ridiculous comment was: "Easy for you lah. Got people push you around while you sit hor?"

Easy for you to say... Perhaps the person wanna try sitting on a wheelchair for a day and see if it feels good.

If you are at Universal Studio, how can you miss taking a photo at their signature globe?!?

I love this photo best. My family and my favourite character in Shrek the Movie!!! It's Puss-in-Boots!!! Meow...

This is probably the best taken photo of the park yesterday. The castle of the Far Far Away Land.

Lunch was the at park as well. There's this restaurant call the KT Grill. Ordered quite the standard stuff you can get outside like chicken, fish and chips and steak. Though the choices ain't wide but the food is good. But this particular steak the dear and I ordered to share was really AMAZING!!!

Look at the size of the steak!!! And it's damn good!!! A steak worth waiting for... Ya... We waited for about 30min for this steak to be served.

Food aside, one of the best experience was that the park is pretty much handicap-friendly. Serious!!! Because of my injury and the wheelchair, I was given priority to almost EVERYTHING!!! Express lane. Assisted pavement. Elevators. Special arrangements. Extremely helpful and friendly staffs. Lovin' every moment of it. I'm practically treated like a king there!!! Probably because of my condition and needed extra caution bah...

Not only me getting these special privileges. My family members accompanying me get to ride with me on the priority queue as well!!!

And guess what... Besides the water ride, I can take almost any ride there!!! Even the high speed indoor roller coaster!!! So long I can get onto the ride without the wheelchair on my own and the safety rails can close up, I can take the ride!!! Woohoo~~~

So maybe getting badly injured just before the trip to the park isn't such a bad thing after all. =P

1062. the cast

Thought of the day: Clutches ain't that expensive actually...

Ok. I've got my ankle cast. Moving around is a chore now. Felt extremely handicap and useless. Even simple tasks like going to toilet or bathing are tough now. But I do not wanna trouble the people around me. So, I really had been trying to self-help.

I'd always wanna know how does it like to put a cast on the legs and now I do. It seriously doesn't feels good. It's like a sauna inside!!! Tada~~~ My cast!!!

No fracture. No hairline cracks. The cast is mainly to restrict my ankle movement because the swell is way to huge and the doctor think that it will be good if I'm on cast. But the cast is super duper heavy on an injured leg. I'm sure it wouldn't felt that heavy if I'm not in pain.

Haiz. Looks like I'm gonna be wheelchair bound during the family day at Universal Studio Singapore on coming Saturday. So sad...

1061. funny joke

Rant of the day: In pain...

Ok. Let's chill and stop thinking about my fall. Read this joke circulated via email.

Caller: Hello, can I speak to Annie Wan?

Operator: Yes, you can speak to me..

Caller: No, I want to speak to Annie Wan!

Operator: Yes I understand you want to speak to anyone. You can speak to me. Who is this?

Caller: I'm Sam Wan .. And I need to talk to Annie Wan! It's urgent.

Operator: I know you are someone and you want to talk to anyone! But what's this urgent matter about?

Caller: Well... just tell my sister Annie Wan that our brother Noe Wan was involved in an accident. Noe Wan got injured and now Noe Wan is being sent to the hospital. Right now, Avery Wan is on his way to the hospital.

Operator: Look, if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital, then the accident isn't an urgent matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!

Caller: You are so rude! Who are you?

Operator: I'm Saw Ree...

Caller: Yes! You should be sorry . Now give me your name!!

Operator: That's what I said. I'm Saw Ree ..

Caller: Oh..... God....

Hahahahaha... I couldn't stop laughing lah...

1060. injured ankle

Rant of the day: A damn suay day...

Trainer: Sir, you are skating and braking fine now. Go faster and try to brake within a shorter distance.

Me: (Hesitate for a moment) Erm... Ok, I'll try...

So there I go. Bend my knees lower because I'm tall and the CG (Centre of Gravity) is too high. First step out, left... right... left... right... Ok, speed picking up. Try to go faster... left... right... left... right... Focus Eric. Focus.

SHIT!!! I'm going too fast!!! Right!!! Brake brake!!! Ok, step one, close up my legs.

*wobbles*

SHIT!!! I'm wobbling too much... Woooo... WOOOOO... Still not close up enough. Somemore Eric!!! SOMEMORE!!!

*wobbles even more violently*

Woooo... Wooooo... AHHHHHHHH!!! Cluck... Cluck... (did I break my bones??? oh shit...) Thud............

There you go, my falling sequence. Don't blame anyone. It's just damn suay... When I heard the "cluck" sound during the moment of the fall, I was thinking that I broke my bones. But I think I didn't (if not how to come home and blog right?) and is just a bad bad sprain on the veins at my right ankle.

I can't stand up properly. I can't walk properly for obvious reasons. My right ankle now swells like a tree trunk and I seriously thinks that I walk like a zombie in Resident Evil movie. Hahahaha...

Luckily my brother is at home and came to fetch me home. Thanks brother. Phew~~~ At least I don't need to stand and wait for cab at that hour (around 9pm). But now I'm worried about the following that's coming up this 2 months:

1) Family Day at Universal Studio Singapore, THIS SATURDAY!!!

2) Start of IPT, 18 May 2010 to 17 June 2010

3) 25km PAssion Run, 22 May 2010

*sigh*

Let's just hope that all turns out fine... Cheers!!!

PS: I'm really fine. Don't worry too much.

1059. dulan-ness

Rant of the day: I said I need a hair cut... But... *sigh*

Today had gotta be one of my worse Sunday this year. If you had been following my tweets today, posted 2 messages that I'm sibeh dulan. Shan't elaborate on it but even till now, I'm still feeling the dulan-ness...

Anyway, the Hong Kong trip in coming August is confirmed. A very last minute decision but I felt a good one as well. Haven't been there yet in my life and after hearing so many good comments about the place, I do think that a visit there is a must. But now, how much to bring there to spend?

Time to start researching and planning the itinerary...

Remember the Doraemon Pig Lucky Charm saga that MacD had previously? I thought the sale of the charm was over but apparently it's still on sale at the outlet near my estate. I had to get one since I'm born in the year of boar.

I love this part of the lucky charm. So cute!!!

Very odd... I don't have the pre-Monday blues for the first time... Very very odd...

1058. in-line skating

Rant of the day: Aching thighs...

After 2 lessons for the in-line skating, I'm beginning to like the sport. Damn good workout lah!!! Prolly because I'm a beginner and still learning how to balance, most of my energy were spent on focusing on balancing myself. In just about 10min, I was already sweating like crazy.

Lesson 1: Stand up. Fall down. Walk.

Lesson 2: Walk faster. Glide. Scissors technique. Brake.

As you can see, we were trained literally like a baby. Stand! Fall! Walk!!! Haha... 2 more lessons. Let's see if I can start to skate properly.

Like the trainer says, practice makes perfect. I wanna get a pair of skates now... =(

But I got no money no money... no money no money...

Sponsors? Hahahaha...

1057. 出头那天

Rant of the day: Gawd... The weather is freaking HOT and HUMID!!!

人不可貌相，海水不可斗量。长相平平也能是绝世唱将。在网上已经流传开来的林育群在星光大道PK赛，以一首Whitney Houston的《I Will Always Love You》，换来世界的眼光。真的不简单。

来看看他在第二场PK的演唱。

太神了吧……

其实他在第一场PK也以满分艺压群雄。这是他在第一场PK的演唱片断。《Amazing Grace》。

如果我也能唱这么好就好了……

1056. the weekend

Thought of the day: Is the weather getting hotter? Or is it just me?

I did not accomplish what I had planned for over the weekend -- to exercise in the morning. Not sure why but I'm simply too sleepy to wake up. No matter how many alarms I had placed, I'm still not waking up. It's like as if my body is screaming for more sleep!!!

So there goes my exercises...

Anyway, spent quite a sum at Zara yesterday. Big hole in my wallet. Here's what I'd got...

Love the blue polo but the cut is meant to be slim, so my shoulders and arms abit tight. Dear says the jeans is nice... So buy lor. Plus a skirt for dear, that's coming to $180... Ooooowwwww... Then again, sometimes spending can be happy too.

Saw this on YouTube.

Perhaps one day, I can start practising on my old name cards as well... =P

1055. 保持镇定

Rant of the day: 很忙……

今天dear家里发生了一些不如意的事情……不便多谈。重要的是，在过程中学到了应对方式，一些平时不会碰到的事。俗话说得好：经一事，长一智。不过真的觉得dear处理得很好。如果没错，就不要承认。不要赔偿。保护家人。保持镇定。

虽然私底下会发泄出来，但是那儿也是正常的。

当然，如果是对付ki siao或脑子不正常的回比较麻烦。无独有偶，这次好像是有一点ki siao的……

无论如何，dear一定要加油！！！我挺你！！！

1054. 这四句话

Joy of the day: Inline skating is FUN!!!

刚刚看完了一集台湾综艺节目，由陶晶莹主持的《大学生了没》。蛮好看的。来宾们在这一集就在讨论婚姻这回事。节目中就听到了这一句非常有意义的至理名言；如何维系美满婚姻？

欣赏对方的长处。

包容对方的短处。

纪念对方的好处。

担当对方的难处。

多么简单却又不难理解的四句话。我真的希望往日结婚后，我会做到这四句话。

1053. fulfil wishes

Rant of the day: Having aching legs...

Listening to Y.E.S. 93.3FM now. Online streaming of course. DJ Peifen was mentioning something about new year resolution and realised that I didn't blog about it last time. But nothing much differs from previous year because I didn't manage to fulfil those last year.

Anyway, I will be graduating this year. So, one wish down on my wish list. I wanna complete the following this year as well:

1) Learn inline skating

2) Do a long distance run event

3) Change a job to something I like (but of course should pay me enough as well)

I'm gonna start (1) from tomorrow onwards. 4 lessons only. In office. But hope that within this 4 lessons, I can learn to skate smoothly at least.

As for (2), I'm gonna start my first in life, PAssion Run on 22 May 2010. Though it's not a full distance 42km marathon, but for a beginner like me, 25km is a good start. I just hope I can survive the run and hopefully can complete it within 3 hours. Hopefully...

Whereas for (3), contract ending but things are hard to say. What if the market is bad? What if I can't find a job? Just hope this will turn out fine... Whatever the case is, it's about 56 days to the end of contract!!! Woohoo~~~

Anyway, the thing that I'm looking forward currently is the family day at Universal Studio Singapore!!! Muahahahahaha...

I'm beginning to like this song... Tonight Tonight by 阮經天 and 趙又廷, from their latest movie 艋舺 (Monga). It has this unexplainable "feel" attached to the song.

Didn't know these 2 guys can sing but prolly of the song as well. Doesn't require too many tough techniques.

And have you watched the movie? You should if you haven't. DAMN NICE LAH!!! Here's a scene from the movie that pricks human heart.

It's not easy to be an star. 演员真的不好当。

1052. feeling bloated

Rant of the day: Ain't getting enough sleep...

I'm in pain for practically the whole day... Feeling bloated. Food not disgesting properly. Irritable bowel. Feeling weak and light. And I'm seriously not sure what's happening but I don't wanna see the doctor. Ya know, after long weekend + take MC on the following working day = people think you are sibeh gao twang even though you are really sick. I've still got another few more months before the end of my contract. Shall reserve any other "stunts" till then.

I'm just hoping it's not gonna be another relapse of my stomach flu. It's been a problem for MANY years...

Anyway, had lotsa ginger in my diet the whole day so as to improve the "poisonous gas" releasing function. So I'm like burp... fart... burp... fart... practically the whole day. I'd just burped in fact...

Hopefully I didn't fart like this... Paiseh to the max can!!!

Hahaha...

1051. short weekend or long weekend?

Rant of the day:

The long weekend seemed short and I didn't do anything much. Felt pretty bored actually. Besides the run on Thursday and Friday, did nothing much really. No movie. No shopping. No KTV-ing. No clubbing. Lotsa eating and twanging at home. Our planned JB dinner was cancelled too.

Not sure what to blog since we did nothing much. But I am pretty sure of something... I don't think I'll make the extra effort to East Coast Park just to jog. Have to wake up early with all the barang barang. Drive there. Get pissed off with the limited parking lots. All people blocking your way when you are jogging!!! I'll stick to where I jog now from my house to Bishan park connector. To and fro is also about 5km.

Also, did something that I'll never even think about last time... participate in a long distance running event organised by 100 Plus, PA and Newton Running. Not 2km... Not 5km... It's 25km!!! Something which I didn't even thought of doing it last time. And in May, I'll have my first finisher medal. Haha... Perhaps gradually, I'll doing more of these long distance run and hopefully one day, I'll complete a marathon.

Anyway, is it true that females are weaker in parking the car?

Hmmmmmmm... But the auntie is funny lah... So is the guy... Reverse lah!!!

1050. 一肚子火

Rant of the day: 我迟早患上心脏病……

今天是一肚子火的一天。真的搞不懂，为什么我每一次放假回来都被针对？对我本人有什么不满就直接讲明。不要耍一些有的没的，玩办公司整治。反正我就只剩下那几个月，想要磨，我就陪你磨一磨。别因为appraisal要来了我就怕你。

我可不是什么善男信女……

刚听到最对的一句话：下属表现不好，是因为领导班子不好。领导无方，就不要怪罪于下属。出了问题，就不要推到下属身上。工作太多，不要说下属办事能力慢。别说“别人都懂，为什么只有你不会”这种不负责任的话。那个“别人”是谁？

先自我检讨检讨吧……

我虽不能说自己领导能力佳，但是至少我自己知道我在做什么、该做什么。我认识自己27年了。而你呢？你知道些什么？你认识了些什么？